Friday, 30 December 2011

2011 in Lyrics

I'm not a monster
I need you now
There's only one way of life & that's your own
How can I possibly be inconspicuous?!
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
Let's grow old together and die at the same time
I don't ever want to wake up
You are perfect to me
Playing for an audience of one
All I know is I'm falling
Love you maybe
Keep your head down low
I have no one else
Watch it burn
Save me
I don't want to care anymore
I know I'm not your favourite record
When I'm in need
More than you know
I just feel complete when you're by my side
All my goodness
Crash against my skin
Be a part of this
It's all that matters
It was never here
We won't get far
I'm not one for letting go
We've still got time
My eyes were bleeding
The road to hell is paved with your indiscretions
Raise me up to the almighty
I just want to light up the world
Stepped of a building to find some concrete evidence
Dreaming about those dreamy eyes
I'm so high on misery
You know I'm almost dead
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
I thought you oughtna know
I can never love you more
You burn in my darkness
Run away with my heart
Someone who's loving you
I'm not the answer
I wish upon a shooting star
Some kind of revolution
You are the water in my lungs
Drown me with emptiness
It's only true if we believe
All I see is you
It feels like falling in love
15 minutes late
I'll hold the gun, you place the bet
Stepped of a building to find some concrete evidence

Peace and love

Sunday, 25 December 2011

Merry Christmas


Don't know if anyone will be reading this today but whenever you do find yourself a-stumbling over this blog, think of me smiling and wishing you all the cheesey stuff that comes along with today :P

"No meaure of time with you could ever be enough, but let's start with forever"
"...did you just quote twilight?"

and that my dear friends, is the true meaning of christmas (paraphrased: no one really knows for sure so just live and enjoy, eh?)

pretty soon my 2011 lyrics will be posted :) tomorrow's the last monday of the year to write a line...hope i find a good one! for anyone who doesn't know, my year of lyrics don't particularly, necessarily mean a lot to me, they just stuck out at the time....and i write one a week throughout the year

anyways, i got off topic, i hope today brought you everything you wanted...i'm missing one thing right now...:s

Peace and love

Thursday, 15 December 2011

POST 600

Don't you just love it when you hear a song that you forgot you loved?


Everyone just about ready for christmas? yeah...i can't wait to sleep and watch bad movies and eat way too much :D i can't stand how some people complain about the commercialisation of christmas. for feck's sake, it's 2011...a LOT of things are commercialised...get over it. it's like how you and your friends are really happy on yours and each others birthdays...accept EVERYONE shares in it. and btw, why do people think being cynical is cool? it's not, being miserably about EVERYTHING is just bloody annoying. you are allowed to like things, even if it's mainstream -_-' ARGH
ok, i'm done ranting, i'm not very good at maintaining anger...doesn't really suit me...

Peace and love

Monday, 12 December 2011

I'm feeling quite good right now...

It's a peculiar thing, to be contented...things aren't perfect *when are they?* but it's a realisation that the imperfections don't really matter...
I've finished Christmas shopping, my dress for the Christmas Ball arrived *LATE!!!* but it is rather pretty... :) i still complained though...that's an important lesson kids, complain your way to victory! and i might be going to a life-drawing class tomorrow evening...who knows where life will take you if you're willing to put yourself out there. i'm gonna do it, get ready to face-palm, ok i'm saying it : "SAY YES" just take oppurtunities because the good ones are all too often few and far between but you're not likely to find them if you say no to everything...
I'm being annoyingly optimistic now...
and i'll piss everyone off just a bit more by saying i've finished my lit essay...i just sat down and got some serious thinking done on friday, hopefully it's not just a pile of twaddle...hmmmm... I asked mrs. doar to mark my pre-draft draft...i hope that's not too cheeky.
Gosh, tommy told my history class that i wanted to marry mr. garside...*cringe* ah wells, i can't get mad at him cuz we're seeing Santa together. oh yes, i'm 17 and most definitely excited about Christmas and Santa :D Watched Elf last's really nearly Christmas, i can't wait!!
i has ein warm 'n' soft 'n' floofy cardigan...v happy :D maow :) it might be a size 18 but i larvs it so yeah!

Peace and love
p.s noodles are brilliant.

Wednesday, 7 December 2011

let's go back to when time was young
and not everything was going wrong
you've gotta admit sometimes it's hard to try
but too soon, i'm learning how to say goodbye

Stewarding course is pretty interesting and not too taxing (!) but seriously, 2 1/2 HOURS of writing in one go is tiring...and i feel a yawn coming on....
ahh, very satisfying. good yawn, i'll rate it a 3/5

So, carol service tomorrow, that's ...something...
dazzling fucknuts *my god she swore...-_-'* totally not ready for senior songs...don't know ANY of the words :'(


i'm gonna dance the blues in my red suade shoes.

Peace and love

Sunday, 4 December 2011

*almost* Finished Christmas shopping :P

ya-ha!! Majorly pleased and I've done a load of wrapping so everything looks so pretty :D One of the best parts of Christmas is coming downstairs in the morning to find glossy parcels embellised with ribbons beneath a spangle-adorned yeah, i like to conritbute to that :D

...really should start on my h/w slash coursework today...btw, i wrote 'slash' because i'd already put h/w instead of homework and thought 'h/w /coursework' would have looked silly... yeah...

Had a great Friday night with Louise, Summer and Harvey, my three fave girls :P Loads of junk 'n' giggles= good night in.

Burnt my finger in work yesterday :( really hurt!! so now i have a lovely blister which totally isn't in the way or anything ¬_¬

Peace and love

Wednesday, 30 November 2011

Can't i just go to sleep?

....that's pretty much it...

Peace and love

Monday, 28 November 2011

What's green and has wheels?


I was lying about the wheels....mwa ha ha.

Been a while Blogisphere, i see that a rather serious debate over gender has arisen in my absence.

Well, just to stick my oar in:
I hate girls because:
1. They wear too much make up.
2. They worry too much.

I hate guys because:
1. They complain when girls don't wear make up and maintain a 'perfect' appearance.
2. They make girls worry too much.

ok...i could carry on with that, or i could complain about the fact that i have a cold....hmmmm....

what's worse is EVERYONE has one so my school is just a breeding ground for disease and eventually know it's true!....kinda...*shifty eyes*

urgh, continuation exam tomorrow :( i'm very tired of examination on the matter of continuing....hmmm. i'm pretty tired in general, no shakespearian wonderment from me today i'm afraid :s

I shall see you upon the morrow, or maybe later :P

Peace and love

Sunday, 20 November 2011

Okayzeys, for real this time...

I reckon i'll be in school tomorrow. I'm not perfect but i wasn't to begin with so i guess i can survive school. Besides, I really can't stand another day of sitting around the house doing nothing. i'm not kidding, i'm so fracking bored. I've read 1 1/2 books in two days because i have nothing else to do. I haven't washed my hair since Thursday *which is when my mum washed it for me anyway* because i've been too tired. whenever i'm not moving from lesson to lesson i'll be sitting down and resting. I am so tired.
I went to the doctor on Friday and all they could say is that i might *FREAKING MIGHT!!!* have a viral infection but they can't really say for sure, all they told me to do was rest and drink water and eat simple food like bread, cereal and pasta. and they gave me some ibuprofen gel to rub on my back.

I haven't taken any pain killers today so far and none yesterday, after the first couple of days, i was completely dosed up and it's just not healthy to be dependent on pills so i'm trying real hard to go without. i'm a lot less dizzy than i've been anyways so i don't need em too much* my appetite's quite a bit better too :) over the first two days i barely scraped 1000 calories...which is about a quarter of what i should have had for two days....:(

anyways, enough moaning and moping and feeling bad for myself, i can't wait to see you again, i expect hugs from EVERYONE, i've really missed you, i've been fecking lonely at home!!!

Peace and love

Wednesday, 16 November 2011

Thinking I should be back tomorrow

but if i'm not talkative don't blame me...
ok, i'm not really into self indulgent whinging but humour me, please?
my head aches, my tummy aches, my back is KILLING me. I have like no appetite and i'm so thirsty but water doesn't fit...if that makes any sense??

i want a hug :(

Peace and love

Tuesday, 15 November 2011

Oh wow.

Haven't really considered the mortality of myself or that of my friends and family in that much depth for a while. I cried through the whole thing.
I don't care if this sounds cheesey, deal with it, i don't know whta i'd do without any of you, i love you.

Peace and love

Monday, 7 November 2011

English in a maths classroom...

like raping Shakespeare.

See, i told you it was massively innappropriate and not all that funny....still, smug face!

i put a peg on it so it doesn't go soft....*smug face*
i was talking about cereal though, i swear...i mean, just for a second, imagine the implications if i was being you can stop imagining...and for the nightmares? YOU'RE WELCOME.

sense much?


currently avoiding all h/w. not too taxing, i just can't get motivated...
today's been a pretty long day, that's all i'm saying. i know a lot of other people were in the same boat with 5 periods but i had a lunch lesson too!! granted, it only lasted say ten minutes, if that but still, i had to walk all the way to A37...effort.
adam came by after school though :D mmm, his cuddles just make the days so much better. come on, today was long and hard *!* and sometimes you just really, really need a hug.
ok, ought to start being Celie right about now....
btw, parents have reserved telly and are getting it tomorrow....yay, we're FINALLY getting a new telly!!! hd, lcd, built in freeview and 42"!!! i'm so happy! please let everything work out, don't get my hopes up then let me down. i want a new telly.
define: dildo

Peace and love

Sunday, 6 November 2011


i'm so freaking pissed. my phone is NOT working right and this is NOT fair and what is most annoying is that the nokia shop in town has closed so i don't know what the feck i'm actually going to do. this always happens. whenever i get something nice it gets wrecked. i don't know why the feck i fecking bother. why try to get a nice phone when i just fucks itself?!? this is so frustrating. i now have one day in which to fix this, do all my homework and get christmas presents. i hate how life gets in the way of living.

Peace and love


My phone's been sent away to the carphone warehouse help centre and for the fortnight's meantime in which it's being fixed, i'm using my spluttery ol' samsung -_-' frustration....

bought mum's christmas present though :P v pleased with it!
ahoy there

apologies for the abundance of vulgarity in my language...i was rather vexed earlier :s xxx

Friday, 4 November 2011

You can't sob and suck simultaneously

I'll let you think about that one.

Today was eventful, found myself praying a lil more than in at all.

Thanks everyone.

i hurt. it's...

i all of it.

Peace and love

Thursday, 3 November 2011


Deal with it.

Summer :P

aaah, today was alright, pretty busy, hence the current avoidance of homework...
Should do some soon, not much on telly tonight so i might it then....maybe *eyes narrow*

mmm, not actually a lot to say, sorry about this :S
breathe out, so i can breathe you in.

I know that everyone reading this blog is into completely different music from me, but i love this song and it needs more people to hear it:

I remember when this was massive! haven't heard it in a while...xD


Peace and love

Wednesday, 2 November 2011

as long as you're trying, i'm staying.

think i heard that in a song a way back...i think it just means quite a lot in the way that things aren't ever really perfect in anything in this life because it isn't a perfect world, in fact it's hideously flawed but the beautiful things are worth waking up for...

not sure where i'm really going with that tbh...


they sell lil cuddly elmos in the entertainer :) not that i browse around the entertainer...or want a cuddly elmo or anything...*shifty eyes*

ah, elmo makes me smile :) spent first period busting moves around my you do....summer jackson, you secret ninja and all around awesome person, i love my CDs :D thank you xxx

rupert, you're beplaited form was a major improvement and i'm personally offended that you disagree. *wish there was an emoticon to say nya nya nya nya nya in a childish-mock....*

Peace and love

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

shrewd/SHro͞od/ Adjective: 1. Having or showing sharp powers of judgment; astute.

You're Welcome :)

Alright my lover??

so, bought cheap halloween sweets post halloween *win* i love haribo :P

didn't totally feck up in I-talian today...always nice to not mortify yourself!

Carved my first ever pumpkin with martin yesterday :) we made it look like Jack from A Nightmare Before Christmas and I was rather please with it, and then we toasted marshmallows in him *yeah* flaming sugar makes me happy.

omgosh, mr. bond smushed a poor, defenseless leaf-bug in history today; further cementing my dislike for him :( me and jenny had name him jeremy...just before he was crushed before our very eyes :'( i'll miss that lil guy, he had pluck, i'll tell you that much for free!

it's hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off.

house rowing was fail but i loved it anyways :P bad dance music and competition...glorious.

anyways, i shall bid you farewell you beautiful creatures!

Peace and love

Saturday, 29 October 2011

I feel so crap right now

Well, work was busy and boring and full of ungrateful bastards who think that they can order you around like a slave just because you're an employee. the customer may always be right but would it kill them to say please and thank you?

So afterwork, i was really looking forward to adam coming around and being able to chill out and forget about it all. but he couldn't come over because his mom wants him to do homework.

and i texted my mum to tell her that he couldn't make it but of course she didn't check because she just can't be fecking bothered so when i got in on my own, she presumed something was wrong and wouldn't shut up.

i'm so pissed off, i would say that i can't wait for today to be over but honestly tomorrow won't be any better because i've got ALL of my homework to do.

what the actual fuck is the point?

Peace and love

Friday, 28 October 2011

Vampire bunny?

...except i couldn't get my fangs to stick in :s so I was a kinda beaten up 'n' battered zombie bunny...but you can't really wiggle all that much before your tail falls off...and have you ever tried head banging with bunny-ears on? So, bunny costume ditched and fang-failure, I ended up at simon's halloween party as a dead slut.

ever worn a corset for more than an hour? dude, i couldn't do it, i gave up and borrowed a shirt from simon xD Such a good night last night but had to get up at 8 this morning and walk home to get ready for work :( maow. which was really fun btw -_-'

Hopefully there'll be pics up on fb of the party soon :) hope everyone's having a good day :P

Peace and love

Sunday, 23 October 2011

I need that calming and the comfort :)

So here's the deal:

Friday rocked my world big style, don't think i've felt so many emotions in one day...ever. hmmm.

There ain't nothing like your smile.

laughed more than i ever have.

I'm all yours.

Work was shite. Busiest day :O and i was outside clearing tables all day! my arms ache majorly. BUT awesome news: managed to swappsie my hours with Frankie *too lovely for words* so now I can go to Thorpe Park tomorrow, so happy :D yayze.

Bought a couple of cute tops yesterday in the epicness which is the H&M sale....swear i'm not advertising... and today i got a Topshop scarf reduced from £16 to....


purple words on a grey background.

Also got a cute lil corsetty-type-top alla Ted Baker :D

I have yet to find a better video for this beautiful song....not sure if i've put it up on here before...fell in love with it a couple years ago so chances are i have but give it a listen a anyways :)

ah, adam came round yesterday afterwork :) we finished real late so didn't end up going to the cinema but we watched The Other Guys at mine and chilled out :)

what have i done today?

Cut dad's hair and then martin's too....i didn't realiise the hair would stick to my tights so looked like I had furry feet :( maow.

gonna do some t-shirt doctoring if i has time later :) gosh, just love being able to wear something that i can guarantee no one else has :D *smug hipster*

why did the chicken cross the mobius strip?
to get to the same side. bazinga.

I too can borrow jokes from The Big Bang Theory :D

I suppose i've enlightened you enough today, hope your holiday is marvelous :P

Peace and love

Thursday, 20 October 2011

Not quite sure...

...why i love this song so much but here we go...

not sure why there's all that silence on the end...

Today was tiring. I'm so, so, so very ready for half term already :)

Welcome to my new followers, it's nice to see some new friends, tell your friends, i'm here all week...and the next...and the one after...seriously, i haven't got a lot else on...

Can't wait to immerse myself in some painting 'n' shite which i will inevitably end up bombarding into your faces via the medium of das interwebs...'n' such.

Peace and love

Wednesday, 19 October 2011

It could be worse...

...You could be a cat with no face....

Check this out?!?

^^SatanSporn's blog :) he's only got one post thusfar *yes i said 'thusfar' WHAT OF IT?!?!?!* but i quite enjoyed Italian verb conjugations anyways...

I was ninjacked today *that's an amalgamation of ninja and hijacked*

that is all.

ZUMBA xD So many guys today....such a laugh :P I don't think they were really expecting to have a proper workout, i reckon they thought that for us girlies, exercise comprises of skipping around, hands held, with flowers in our hair....

sorry, day dream :)

How wrong they were :P

i really ought to get back to Italian...i only came on here to look up how to conjugate 'fare' - 'to do' because it's irregular and pisses me off with it's non-conformity. how dare it be different, how very fecking *deal with the fact i use the word fecking...for feck's sake* dare it?!?! GARGH.

Peace and love

Monday, 17 October 2011

Laughing because...

otherwise I'd be crying...

I've been so busy, knackered and hungry today. and the best part?

It's only Monday. I have four more days like this.

And more?

There's something kinda big on my mind at the moment. Praying it'll go away if i just ignore it.

I sound miserable but it wasn't so bad, things'll work has a funny way of doing's not perfect, never perfect but it'll work out ok in the end...maybe for the best. who know? ah, i'm so confused? anyone ever had to make a decision? i'm way ahead of myself....can't even know for sure, it's probably nothing. flip a coin. tell me what to do.

but seriously, life's great, it'll be ok...right?

Peace and love

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Avoiding English h/w...

...that's due in tomorrow....awwwwww :/
this is going to take ages and it's my own fault for putting it off for so long :S
and tomorrow's going to be a busy evening as well...fabulous.


today was rather marvy, thanks for asking :P Spent the afternoon and prevening with tommy :D we watched The Other Guys and also copious amounts of The Big Bang Theory...yay!

and i may have yoinked a couple polos...*sneaky face*

ah, today was good *smug face*

anyways, i actually sould start starting on my work kinda soon...

Peace and love

Friday, 14 October 2011


Today was so good :D

English language presentation actually looking as though we might just about pull it off now...since i think i actually might be beginning to understand phonetics and phonology :) yay!

Chilled 5th period, sunny field and crinkly grass, burnished halos and weightlessness. oh, this life i love :) the little things....

Peace and love

Thursday, 13 October 2011

vesuvian \vuh-SOO-vee-uhn\ , adjective; 1. Volcanic; of, pertaining to, or resembling Mount Vesuvius. noun: 1. A type of match formerly used for light


Succeeding in making myself feel foolish....two syllable letters....oh dear. Oh cruel phonetics and phonology, for what do you allude my comprehension?!?! I shall hound mr. houghton about it all tomorrow...and he can patch up my mere existance.


new Tales of Mere Existance episode, great deal of love for this:

Peace and love

Wednesday, 12 October 2011

mav·er·ick/ˈmav(ə)rik/ Noun: An unorthodox or independent-minded person.


Much love for...

right now :P

Zumba was good today :D

Summer, don't you agree it's a shame that the boys missed out on Heidi in her hotpants and crop top ;)?? aha

Wish me luck for tomorrow, i feel taxed with all the maxxing 'n' sometimes iss gett heavy fir all the times wen we cant.

Peace and love

Tuesday, 11 October 2011

Oh Glorious Weekend


I'm so glad to be living my life really is quite awesome when I don't over-analyse, worry and go and ruin it.

My party went better than I could ever really have dreamed, right up until it began, I'd convinced myself that everything would go wrong but i hope I'm right in saying that everybody had a brilliant night :) Thank you xxx

Okay, for some reason, this song holds some kind of resonance with me and i can't quite get over how much love i have for it right now but anyways...i shall stop rambling and start sharing so that you can make your own mind up about it, eh?

Hope you like it :P

Currently * well not literally currently but around about this time... * doctoring a pair of jeans...the plan was to mash up a t-shirt but i couldn't find the one i wanted to change :s it's just a big ol' white one which i never wear so i though there'd be no missing it if i cocked up big time...

argh, fecking halifax. anyone who's read this for a while knows that i've had a difficult relationship with them but i'm really bugged now....:@ my card's just noy working...there's money on it and the pin's anyways, they're sending me a new one....soon...i hope.

anyways, The One Show beckons...oh the life i live...wouldn't have it any other way

Peace and love

Friday, 7 October 2011


This party's happening people :D


To be fair, with all the work that everyone's put into this, how could we not have this party??

SO yeah, it's happening, it's awesome and it's nothing to do with ange. i'm not even pissed that he's not doing it, i'm upset that he let me should be able to rely upon your family if no one else :s


gonna be a busy evening preparing for tomorrow but it's gonna be good :P

Peace and love

Thursday, 6 October 2011


I feel like screaming...i'm so glad i have my own little corner of cyberspace to rock back and forth in...

Everything's gone tits up with my party right now...because of one person's selfish u-turn...BUT NEVERMIND

argh. depserately trying to find someone else :s so much stress :s everyone's being totally supportive and awesome though, i love you guys xxx

Peace and love

Monday, 3 October 2011


and i haven't even monetised my blog...

just have so much love for that...

Today was a very long day...five periods and a lunch session. dang...i don't think i'd have made it without the sun shining today, i swear I'm solar powered :P aw, missing Zumba on wednesday for the sake of helping lower school kids with their target grades...-_-'

ah wells.

Peace and love

Sunday, 2 October 2011

Had a genuinely brilliant day...

For the first time in a lil while :) Got up around half nine, spent a while listening to radio, chilling as i woke up...washed my hair, finished an english essay *oh YES, i said i'd do it and i did: THAT'S FOLLOWTHROUGH BITCHEZ...and i used a Z because inside, i'm a total effing badass* Nipped into town :) Bought a couple of things in primark...tell you more tomorrow if you ask...don't really wanna spread it into cyberspace but something made me REALLY happy xD

Then i cycled to Tommy's :D Gorgeous weather but it is bloody hot today...i must have looked so attractive when I turned up xD We watched Easy of the films he got me for my birthday and then Submarine which I've been dying to see for about a year-SO GOOD. Just look it up, please, i recommend this so strongly! Then we got ice cream. oh yes, ice cream in October....but this ain't any ordinary October, oh noes, this is something altogether a lil more fabulous *camp* than that.
Then we got back in and watched some big bang theory :) Tommy made me tea and in return, i yoinked his pasta...i'm such a good friend.

Cycling back was lovely, it was a lot cooler...and down hillier xD The sky was all burnished sanguine and looked like the back drop from a mills and boon inspired fantasy...not that i'd know or anything *ahem*...
There was a smell of burnt toast down one street and i had an awesome nostalgia-attack *a term which i now realise doesn't really reflect the nature of the memory...ah wells...* Good times.

So yeah, I'm feeling...fulfilled.
Roll on Monday
Peace and love

Saturday, 1 October 2011

Ange's Birthday :D

...and i was working...-_-'

He opened all his presents this morning before I left though :P He opened mine and kinda mumble-grumbled in that mannish way of his...'awesome'

So happy I got him something he really genuinely likes! I got him an Opeth hoodie btw...that's pretty much his favourite band. I was worried that it might be a lil too big but i know he likes baggy clothes-anyways, it's perfect and i'm so pleased!! Making someone happy and getting it right is such a great feeling. Like when i got Katie JLS condoms with Aston on the box *he's her favourite and she loves the band* so it was a joke but also thoughtful! :P
ahhh, rambling :) Such fun. Work was rather quiet today and i was ever so tired so i was drifting in and out of reality all day...i proabbaly only blinked around 3 three times today...I did a lot of that vacant-gazing lark xD
Going to Tommy's tomorrow, but not before I finish my English essay...I shall be studious and organised, i will i will i will.



Gorgeous weather, please last, I don't want to be walking to my party in the rain next week.
Summer, could i maybe give you some things for the party on friday for you to put up on saturday, it's just, i'm not sure how long i'm going to have to help set up on saturday after work and getting ready....and there's a limit on lateness before it becomes unfashionable xD I'll be there as soon as i can though and i'll make sure it's not just you setting up cuz that'd be really unfair.

ooh, Mr. Houghton *top bloke* came into the café today :) so much love for him!! it's so sweet how he always has time for everyone.

ah, i need sleep.

I want to be comfortable and stop caring.

Peace and love

Friday, 30 September 2011

Thursday, 29 September 2011

Have the last few days really happened?

This week has really flown by, not entirely sure why but I'm sure the sun probably wasn't exactly a hindrance :P Me and summer spent all of 4th period lazing in the sunshine....'twas good :P and i'm not burnt *bonus*

So, didn't have history today-yay!
English presentation was fine-yay!
English essay was made bearable by mild innuendo-yay!

Went to see Top Girls last night as we're studying it in English lit. It's always a bit of a bummer when you step outside of the theatre and realise you didn't get a word of that...Feeling dumb really doesn't do a lot for the self esteem xD
Had a really great evening with Summer, Tommy, Harvey, David and Rupert though :D We got macdonalds!! ahaha. Mr. Garside wasn't kidding, if you eat the actual burger part on its own, it tastes of cardboard...crikey *yes, I just used the word 'crikey'....DEAL* I wouldn't be surprised if they were suitable for vegetarians. FACT. O.o
I'm really glad i'm friends with rupert now :) i've sort of known of him for like five years without ever really speaking to him, so i think it's really good that i'm now actually properly getting on with him and having a he always seems to have yummy food that he doesn't mind sharing...but mainly the bit about him being a laugh....of course....

Bought a new dress, fulfilled the female stereotype, GOOD TIMES.

It's the same as the one I wore today but BLUE :D much love for bluuuuuuue :P also got a vest top but that's less interesting...
Do you know what else is less interesting?? fracking open evening-THAT'S WHAT....ARGH. RAGE. Hopefully I won't be giving non stop tours for hours...wanna chat with my fellow spreaders of awesome...'n' junk... :D

Wow, this was a long one ...*please no more innuendo, i've had my fair share today*

Good Luck on DofE Guys :P I'll be thinking about you marching whilst i'm eating pie :)

Peace and love

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

The Last Song

X Factor took this beautiful memory and made it so cheesey, depsite that, i still love it. It was the last song at prom and it's means a lot to me for a number or reasons...

Peace and love

Saturday, 24 September 2011

My costume's almost sorted :)


Dubstep on my face with the waaab waaaab waaab -_-'

Having a cold sucks :( I have shoes, stockings, suspenders, skirt, bralet....just need a blouse...or not xD aha. i keeeeed, i keeeeeeeed...depending on how much i drink ...again, i kid! This is going to be my first real party...i'd kind of like to remember it!

Also bought Ange's birthday present :) Hope he likes it!!

Peace and love

Thursday, 22 September 2011

I'm already falling

Someone made me smile today, I'm glad they're back. I hate it when you're not around.

I'm feeling so sorry for myself right now, which i begrudge. There's enough sadness in the world already and really...i only feel sorry for myself cuz i have a cold so that's a really crappy reason xD

my eyes do ache though :(

looking forward to tomorrow :D i bought biscuits!! let's do a sunshine dance *then hug some trees and braid each other's hair, eh kaytei?* ah, i just hope it's good weather :D

going to indulge in some sustainance of the edible variety....getting dinner :)

Peace and love

Wednesday, 21 September 2011


Peace and love

Monday, 19 September 2011

Hey, Love

Quoting Summer's top :D
because: WHY NOT?!!?

hey kaytei, calm the feck down, yeah?

urrrm, buttons tricked me :( looking for snackage and mistook them for minstrels...even though i'd just bought them and they were still attached to cardboard backing....but anyway :P

"Between you and me, you're sexy"

i love you :)


Peace and love

Friday, 16 September 2011




Found them shoved at the back of my wardrobe after they failed...because i didn't realise that they were supposed to be worn around the waist....oops. so, shorts fail...or my fail? i wonder.

mmmm, shug.

Can't believ i hadn't heard this song til just now :s

i;d love than on the playlist please summer? :)
also, v. guilty pleasure:


jayze...i didn't realise quite how seizure-inducing that is O.o

dang-a-lang. ahhhhhh

got trackies i can ZUMBA :) wiggle das hips, jaaaaa? don't know why i used a german reference when talking about zumba...hmmmm, i guess it's because i'm awesome :)

anyways, i shall bid you farewell my honey-suckle darlings.

Peace and love
p.s adam, stop breast feeding me.

Thursday, 15 September 2011


is all around us :D
If you took your head out of your own arse for a moment you might notice that.

^^ that's not addressing anyone in the moment xD

anyways, i'm making the most of the sunshine whilst it lasts and filling up on my quota of vitamin D...btw, do they still sell sunny D here in Britain?...heard they stopped because of sugar content/additives or summat...
I loved that drink as a kid! dang, miss that :P

Fire drill encroached on my sun-loving antics :s
such. inconsiderate. timing.

However, in more uplifting news, my skirt arrived today :P yayze. part of my party you sometime!

Tommy, when did you say your mammmy was coming home? :s

Friday tomorrow :) i've missed those!

Peace and love

Tuesday, 13 September 2011

*Insert mild innuendo here*


I am so tired. I grow weary of time itself, i see no reason no logic for the passing of seconds in the daytime. I just wish the nights were longer. I need sleep. I need coffe and so, so, so much sleep. WHY AM I TIRED?!?!? oh cruel pillow, with your feathery goodness, why must i leave you each morning, why must i tear apart our dream-bound entangled hearts. let us slumber forever upon mattressy-majesty and never again step forward into grey-clad, downcast drudgery, kindest friend.

i don't even know anymore. seriously. not a fecking clue. i'm sorry.

Peace and love

Monday, 12 September 2011


Soon as i get my netbook/laptop/technilogical-confusion-inducer...i need to start vlogging xD watched rob's of them....and got inspired :P aha.
geeze, i would watch all his videos but one of them was like 10 minutes....and there are much as i love rob, i don't have 40 minutes to watch him wheeling his chair against a wall, nomming a banana and playing a harmonica....

did like his hat though.

sprinkled sun-speckles a scattering of less than mattering into a dispersion of sensory defeat.

that is all.


Peace and love

Sunday, 11 September 2011

I had a crazy idea...

that I should get up early, jog, bathe, eat well, be organised, finish homework....I've done nothing.

Have started watching Love Actually with much better than i remember it :P Done a little reading...plucked my eyebrows...wrote my big diary for the first time in nine days, i'm seriously neglecting that thing :s

just won a bid on ebay, ah, gotta love ebay :P

Deborah's staying round tonight :) ange and her are leaving ridiculously early tomorrow morning to go to edinburgh, they're gonna have an awesome time but i'm really going to miss ange :S

Mushrooms : Don't drink and drive... EAT AND FLY

gonna go finish watching love actually :)

Peace and love

Friday, 9 September 2011

For the first time...

...this week I've actually had the feeling that sixth form maybe won't be too bad after all.

I'm really enjoying english language
Plus, double psychology, which was previously most dreaded, has now been found to be just generally epic.

did that sentence make a lot of sense? doubtful....

So, summer's should be epic tonight :P much love for this get together, i loves hanging out with all you guys.

genuinely was asked if my hair had ever been on fire today...tommy, you really are ever so special :)

lovely surprise visits from hattie and louise you xxx

Peace and love

Thursday, 8 September 2011

Ah, much love

Ed Sheeran- Traktor

gosh, love this cover!!

Summer, summer, summer, I can't get over everything you're doing to help me with the party, it's awesome :P i feel so un-stressed atm...just praying it'll work out :P aha

was going to write lots and lots....promise....but i got distracted :s

Peace and love

Tuesday, 6 September 2011

POST 555

Return To The Land of Nod...except it's all different. It's the same place I've been going for half a decade but suddenly everything's brand new and confusing...but ok. I had history today and it was good. I love my tutor group, party planning's looking good....after the minor oversight of scheduling it for a void in time's existence. hmm.

BTW, Adam's Blog.

gosh, i don't want to overplan and worry, but you know what i'm like xD just once, i'd love a real party. a proper, all singing, all dancing, fucking-shit-up party.

just need to do some reading and my homework's finished....yay :P

reallly like this song:

and summer: lyrics :P

Peace and love

Wednesday, 31 August 2011

BCLC, Pinky and The Brain, Santa, Nigella Lawson, Can I Butter Your Baguette?

I honestly have no idea anymore...I think i left my mind in bed this morning.

ah, tommy, tried to inquire about the frame but i couldn't get an answer....might just take's been there FIVE days!! Now, stop punching toddlers...remember, next time you get The Urge, get to bURGEr King. Ahhh, product placement in blogging, much loves :P

The nights are long but the years are short when you're alive....

This song really strikes me somewhere deep in here *prods own chest :s* O.o

Met David, Tingda and Tommy *appreciate that I alphabetized you....* in town for House Drama-ish stuff. Such a laugh and i'm really, really glad I came because I'm now part of it :P gutted i missed the first one!

AND THEN SHE JOGGED. found this one really tiring :s should get a pedometer to see how far i go...
or not.

oooh, did more painting....looking more like a painting, less like a blob now :P

mmmm, today i've nurtured my mind, body and soul, i'm a total guru xD


Peace and love

Tuesday, 30 August 2011

I'm With You

I love this album.

I've listened to it three times today and i just think it's fantastic. Stand out track for me:

Met with tommy...met some awesome people at the castle. got coke. monkey tiny bag...
made offensively loud noises. awesome.

tried to paint...disappointed so far...:/

Peace and love

Monday, 29 August 2011

Just living is not enough

I must have sunshine and freedom

Quoting FatFace ftw xD

And as i breathe a final breath, please press your lips to mine, I'll love you now and for the next eternity, we're nowhere near the end just breaking past one more line.
I'm leaving.
Don't follow.
I can/'t promise you, it's for the best, i swear. Remember, with each new breath i breathe, your name will fill a world without air.
It's fun to love the lie, it's more to give up. Let's call it quits when the rain comes anddoesdoesdoesn't stoppp. I throw you a jacket. I'll throw you a ring. I'll throw myself overboard. I'm glad i dododon't swim. I'll pray I'm drowning and you can wait if you like, i won't be too long now. I guess i must be moving but you're moving too. Good. My lights are fading.
Cue silence.
Enter gloom.
Stage right. They're staring.
Stage Left. Still staring.
Everyone that remains... Scarring a world you created, I'll miss you.
Wash me away, slit my parachute, snap the wire. Who knows, maybe I'll be taken too. Maybe I'll be fine/ i'll fly.
It's fun to love a lie.

For now, I'm just trying to learn how to say goodbye.

Wake me up, unshackle my bones, tip my axis. I need a remix. I'm....losing. I'm so sorry. I forgot.

Today was a great day :) Infact, it was MOST TRIUMPHANT. :P gosh, it was cold coming home...should have worn my clothes....should have listened to my folks xD see you tomorrow?

have a glorious tomorrow
Peace and love

Friday, 26 August 2011

It's been almost a week!

Dearest Blogisphere,
I apologise deeply for my absence, although inexcusable, I offer a reason for my lacking in posts of late....



Quick catch up

Had epic sleepover with Summer and Hattie *I love you guys :')* We made two straight guys kiss....:D with brilliant persuasion *is that how it's spelt...looks wrong :S* Had one massive jelly shot xD Got asked out....?!
Hattie fraped me. >:[

'if i get All A's i will strip in the courtyard ;)'

8 people liked it and no one seemed to realise that i hadn't posted it -_-' argh


I was in denial that results day was approaching but somewhere between Hattie's and school it dawned on me and my heart was beating so fast, i swear i thought it would just give out xD
I'm very pleased with my results, I don't think i could personally have done better than I did and considering some of the waffle wrote about fairies and pixies *seriously-not kidding* in english I'm ecstatic with my grade :D

Then onwards to Harvey's pool party :P The day began with bleek greyness and seemingly endless rain, however, the sky's leaky tap was mended and thus the sun raised his smiling face :D yayayayyayayayayayay
We were so lucky with the weather, and being british, I really appreciate the sunshine :) It was so good to catch up with everyone as well and no one was too down about their grades so it was just an awesome celebration :D Many thanks to Harvey for hosting it and just being bloody brilliant in general!! Rock band was hilarious....ah, such good times. I loved the pool too...and our acoustic tent xD
Gosh, I just don't want it to end.

Then I slept over at Adam's :) Fisrt time seeing him in a week and a half :'(!!! We had an indian takeaway *my first ever takeaway xD* and a bottle of champagne :P embarrassed to admit that one glass made me feel a lil light headed *i know, i know, i'm ridiculously light weight....BUT the bubbles in champagne make it go to your head faster so it's not totally my fault.....:P*
Lovely night :) He gave me a bracelet and a lil amethyst tree, they're so pretty and i love them :)
Randomly woke up about 4am so i went downstairs to get a drink and also retrieved david's hipflask from the fire place :P ahahahaha Then went back to bed and accidentally kicked adam awake...sorry...Went back to sleep and got up about 7, got ready and then went back to sleep til about 8.30 when i left to get to mine to change for work, got soaked walking from the bus stop to my house :( maow. ah wells, lil smattering of hydration won't kill me...yet. I just like saying 'yet'
don't ask me why xD

Work was...busy. I was on till as well :( Kevin's determined to train me up inside and it was major stressful :/ I forgot to ask for the table number 3 times and that pissed Shaun off :( Shaun's usually a proper decent *innit* guy but when he's angry he is intimidating :s maow...
Woek again tomorrow, the only thing that's keeping me going is knowing that i'll soon be able to afford my netbook :)

In other EPIC news:
It is 1 month til my birthday :P The countdown has begun. Expect constant updates.

Anyways, I've probably bored you far too much, Hope your days shine with smiles of the soul.

Peace and love

Saturday, 20 August 2011

Thank You Summer and Hattie :)

They came to visit me at work today and even though I only saw them for a ridiculously short time, it was a lovely break in the monotony of my day!

Should have enough money to buy my netbook by next week...although it won't get put into my account until the week after *hrumph* but still, the aim was to have ma netbook by the time i return to County and that seems pretty acheivable *yayzors*

why do good girls fall in love with me? :P

Went for a jog when i got in from work today :) always feel awesome after my jog...and i actually really enjoy doing it to...listening to great music, appreciating the view, feeling blood raging through my veins, sweat prickling my skin, my mind running all over the place whilst my feet remain focused after each reminds me i'm alive...and that's never a bad thing!

reckon i'll go to oxfam tomorrow...i haven't been in ages and i love going round charity shops because there's so much stuff....loads of different style clothes and awesome books 'n' trinket-y-things that you just can't find in run of the mill retailers that only sell one season's worth of stuff at a time...i just love that the stock's forever changing...

so yeah :P

I hate making milkshakes...although i'm quite good at it after all this practice :P
really hate making flat whites -_-' they are the worst of drinks. stupid name as well.


I have pancakes! I'll bid you farewell

Hope you're feeling marvelous

Peace and love

Monday, 15 August 2011

Tangled tongues choke a change


Caught up with ma bud Tommy today :D been a while man!! :') great seeing you again. We watched The Notebook...and I almost cried :s Great film...I think a fell a lil in love with Noah that crazy SOB xD

We made a you do....

Tommy made me a bagel xD Bagels are goooooood

omgosh. A bumblebee flew into my head...that buzzled on my left arm for a lil while before flying away...i would have been able to waft it away before its kamakahzi *can't spell...sue me...not literally, i'm poor :)* attack but i was on meeee bike :P I'm totally loving my bike xD it's the bestest thing right now, i can go places, far moe efficiently than i could before...cycling in the rain is interesting. not unpleasant, rather refreshing but fairly cold in my lil puds :s woggle.

omgosh, chilis coming to london in november....i could die happy if i saw them live.

Peace and love

Saturday, 13 August 2011

I would write something interesting...

If i hadn't been so bored today and yesterday.

btw, summer, got your blog open in another window, listening to that song, as i'm writing's really nice :s

work sucks. it fucking sucks. i hate it. I need money. i love having money. wish i could get paid for nothing....but then i'd complain about my boredom...ah, this paradoxical nonsense.

a rest is as good as a change.

I'm finding jogging to be pretty freeing atm...i'll be bored of it in a week. just who i am.

adaaaaammmmm, can you design a tattoo for me please? :P

Praise The Damned.
Once day is done death depairs for his next plaything.
just wait quietly. listen closely, you'll be tested at the end.

i'll see you soon

Peace and love

Tuesday, 9 August 2011

With recent and ongoing riots...

it feels a lil trivial to be writing about anything else :/ Obviously the riots began for a reason *respectable or not, i won't deem* but now it's just spreading and seems as though it really is merely a greed driven celebration of violence and the insightment of hatred. It began in Tottenham and now it's all over Hackney, Birmingham, Bristol, Liverpool. What is this? The news is showing interviews with some people involved in the riots saying that the police are pushing them around, demanding respect, saying it should be earnt....they'll respect the police when the police respect them blah blah blah.... But, seriously, how can respect be expected by people burning cars, looting shops, destroying cities...simply for the sake of it?? IDEFK...I just hope it ends soon, if it gets to Guildford I'll be bloody pissed off.

In happier news...

Spent the afternoon with the rather marvelous Hayley :) It was just a fantastic, girly shopping trip :P It was as though we'd seen each other two weeks ago, instead of two years. We were barely talking about the past, just chatting generally and having a laugh in the here and now. I'm going to admit it, i was properly nervous about seeing her again...because people change and it's not unfounded to worry that someone you used to know so well could become someone you don't's happened so often before :s but anyways, she's still just as lovely as ever and today really was pretty brilliant :P
btw, Godalming College lot, she's going there!! so be nice :) i'm sure you'll love her, she's like a smarter, sweeter, politer version of it arrogant to be saying i see a lot of myself in her? i don't know...I just feel as though biology isn't everything when it comes to family and sometimes in life you can meet you sister. Cheesey. but true!

Hope you've had a beautiful day

Peace and love

Monday, 8 August 2011

when I whip out my big 10 inch...


mwa ha ha.

gotta love innuendo...and oldschool awesomeosity like Aerosmith

can't believe Steve Tyler is now a judge on American Idol....crying shame

i'm getting an urge to do some painting....actually, i'm totally gone do that right now....if i can find everything xD There's a movie on called Blade...mommy wants to watch it...might half watch it, whilst i'm painting :)

I'm catching up with Hayley tomorrow, she was my best friend from lil lil school and we barely ever see each other any more so it'll be awesome to hang out :D hoping it won't be awkward, also hoping it doesn't rain :/ rain's always a downer...

Rode my bike for the first time in eons. well, my mom's bike's better than mine but the lowest her seat goes is my waist height so it's a right pain to get on and off of O.o maow. didn't mean to flick the V at you, adam, but seriously, i wasn't being modest when i told you i'm crap at rising my was in fact an understatement...i got close to mowing down so many pedestrians :s and i didn't stop at any traffic lights....i'm just a terrible person really. sorry :/

come on come on come on come on TAKE IT. take another lil piece of my heart.....


Peace and love
p.s shine sing love sorrow sickness worry wonder delight delictation derision desperation

Sunday, 7 August 2011

This was amazing late last night....


Because, this time, it's not censored. Hells Yeah :D

Argh, I should NOT write when i'm in a bad mood because the next day I always feel loads better and then come across all bi-polar -_-'

I'm back in Guildford :P Got a lil stuck in traffic....massive crash :/ hope everyone's alright :/

but it didn't hold us up too much, got back about 20 to five...i think :P Guess I'm glad to be back, it'll be nice sleeping in my own bed in my own room again. And of course, i can catch up with everyone i haven't seen in way too long.

btw, i'm loving Parachutes by Charlie Simpson...just sorta in love with him actually xD aha


can't think of much to say....after a week away, i'm pretty zapped. I don't think i've ever used the word 'zapped' peculiar. meh.

I'm gonna end here before I ramble too much :P can't wait to see you all again. i miss you

Peace and love

Saturday, 6 August 2011

New Year Feeling....

I'm getting that down feeling i always get at new years....think it's cuz i'm going home tomorrow...

usually, coming here, to Wales I feel like I'm 'coming home' but this time just felt different....i enjoyed it, don't get me wrong...i just don't feel peaceful or rested or accomplished....which is how i feel at new years when i'm thinking about all of the resolutions i've failed at. I don't know why i feel like this...not even sure why i'm writing this. I'm so tired, it's only 11.17 but i feel as if i haven't slept in a while...

Peace and love

Tuesday, 2 August 2011

I really Hope that everyone realised...

....That the last post wasn't actually me :P

Internet's been down for a couple of days here so this is the first time i've been on the internet in two days...which for a teenager is a pretty long time xD

Adam kindly posted for me. i say kindly in the loosest sense of the started with him transcribing but then he became creative with my choice of words xD

Btw, SUMMMMMMMMER, I just read your blog and the view count was on 1234....thought that was kinda cool :)

Walked along the sea shore with tide lapping at my ankles, toes sinking into the sand and I felt myself being washed away with that ebbing salted water. I couldn't help but think that it doesn't get much better than this.

Cheesey, i know....but sometimes clichés walk into your life and it's a shame to ignore the sweet ones...

I really hope the drill won't shatter my stone.

Well, cyberspace, it's been lovely catching up :) if anyone's around later i may be on fb chat 'n' stuff...just saying :)

anyways. i stink. so i'm heading for the shower, laters biactches.

Peace and love

Monday, 1 August 2011

Cymru Mark 3

So we got up at a really gay time of day, I mean DOOOOOOOOOOOOOD the time was still single digit numbers. Like, who the f*** wakes up before 10? Or even 12 for that matter. (It was 5:30, f.y.i.). And I'm still awake 20 hours later. What a bumlord!

So I is chillin' in ma hood in da West side of Wales, and all you haterz better shut the f*** up y'all coz you iz goin' down ma friends. BIATCHES!!!

This shit is onnnnnnnnn.

Tomorrow I am going to go out into the town and smoke some weeeeeeeeed. There is a shop that I know that I can get it from. It's like EastWest only more welsh (meaning there is a sheep behind the till). But yeah. I am totally up for the ganga, man.

Let's be honest here, I am a massive hippy, you probably would expect me to do this kinda ting, because I am always so chillaxed and sh** and I'm always eating pies.

Peace and Love

P.S. I just did a fart in my room at the house, and my parents came in and asked if I was drilling.

Friday, 29 July 2011

Every fight is a foodfight...

....if you're a cannibal...

This guy is amazing. Sorry about the lack of video for this but he's sooooo funny :D

Peace and love

Thursday, 28 July 2011

To Live Is The Same As To Dream....

Let's dream big.

Peace and love

Tuesday, 26 July 2011

People in glass houses shouldn't throw stones....

How about no one throws stones? That's just bad behaviour....

Unless you're trapped in a glass house....

Then, only people in glass houses should throw stones. As long as they're trapped.

Great day with Matt today :D The woman in the art shop must have hated us...but it's such a cute lil shop and they sell everything arty!! much love for that shop :D

Adam, they sell glow in the dark fabric paint there....pretty cool eh?? :P

Peace and love

Monday, 25 July 2011

The Lovely Bones

Finally saw this film!! Everyone's been talking about it for ages so I watched it when it came on the telly box last night. I welled up a few times because it is just that sad...I kept trying to remind myself that this was fiction, but that just made it worse because horrific things like this really do happen. Saoirse Ronan *apologies if I've spelt that reeeeeeeaaaally badly* was incredible. I can't believe that she's so darn young. She played Susie Salmon, the victim of a serial killer, on her journey to the Otherside. Whilst being stuck in the, 'Inbetween' she finds out the truth of her killer and relives the barbaric assaults upon herself and also the killer's other victims. Ultimately, Susie must decide between vengeance and allowing her family to heal.
Stanley Tucci plays the chilling killer, hats off to this man. It takes a pretty talented actor to be able to play such a cold, unrelatable character, especially to play him to such a high standard.
It's directed by Peter Jackson, the only other PJ film I know of is the new King Kong which came out around 2005. Pardon my ignorance. However, I couldn't see any similarities between the two pieces. Obviously, I don't have a trained critic's eye, nor do the films themselves really share any similarity in plot or there could lie the reason for not immediately sussing that this was Peter Jackson. In fact, if I were really to be so bold, I would even suggest that the style in The Lovely Bones was more reminiscent of Michel Gondry....but I digress...
This film is a visually stunning, beautifully shot work of cinematic brilliance. It's touching and heart-breaking. I'd give this a 4* but honestly, prepare to cry!

So, not too much happened after coming home yesterday...I planned on falling asleep...but couldn't until about midnight *which is too late for me* So I'm still pretty tired this morning, however, I've only been up an hour and I've had 2 portions of fruit *3 to go xD* and I'm currently in the library, as I'm out and about :P
Have you ever been into the garden just to the right of the Guildford Library? It's very beautiful. rather quiet, peaceful, a good place for contemplation and reflection. If you're around the Guildford area, I recommend this spot...perfect for escaping the hubub of modern living.
Adam's coming to mine in a few hours....if he's awake...:P x

Have a wonderful day!

Peace and love

Sunday, 24 July 2011

At Adam's :P

So, i came here around 10 ish...i walked cuz buses are ridiculous on sundays and so had to get up around 8 ARGH.

He better bleeding well appreciate that. aha.

argh....dunno what to write :s pimms tastes like crap....i'll write properly later.....maybe....i'm quite tired actually meh. ah wells. it'll last til whenever i sleep i suppose.

Peace and love

Saturday, 23 July 2011

RIP Amy Winehouse

14 September 1983 – 23 July 2011

No matter what happened in her private life or towards the end of her career, her incredible talent was unquestionable and she brought so much to British music. She will be missed.

That's one of my favourite songs...I'm so sad she's gone.

Peace and love

Friday, 22 July 2011

Went to Christel's!!

For the first time in way too long!
I hadn't realised how much i missed her :s Thing is...when you've shared so much with someone and been around them for so long, you never completely lose it. So, when I called her last night....things were just cool, we were chatting and giggling and reminiscing as though I'd been chatting to her just last week.

We just hung out with Jess, Gina and Ellie today and it was really cool :) Watched a horror called White Noise: The Light *it's a sequel and i haven't seen the first one....but i still liked it* It did make me jump but I jump at jackets falling off hooks....
I'd give it three stars, watchable, very watchable but not that great. I rate horror films by the lack of sleep I get after watching them and honestly, I reckon I'll get a good 40 winks tonight :P

Today was good *contented sigh*

frack. i has work tomorrow...that is total bum.


ok, i'm quoting this from facebook but you don't choose where you find beautiful things :s

Live without pretending.
Love without depending.
Listen without defending.
Speak without offending

You know when you've been on the computer too long when you start liking everything on facebook....

I'ma call it quits now otherwise my eyes will become's tru, my mama told me so!

Peace and love

Thursday, 21 July 2011

Good Movies

So I've seen several good films recently:

The Green Hornet
Keeping Mum

Okay, so...
Elizabethtown, out a few years ago, I'd say around ****
Stars Kirsten Dunst and Orlando Bloom, two of my most favourite actors :) It's a really sweet, touching film, definitely aimed more towards women than men but that's fine!! The score's lovely and there are some truly hilarious moments....good for a girly night in.

The Green Hornet. *****
I fragging loved this film.
Stars Seth Rogan one of my all time favourite PEOPLE, not just of the acting world: EVER!
Also got some great acting skillage from the gorgeous Cameron Diaz.
Very funny, some fantastic action sequences, i think it was rated 12a or summat so it can pretty much be enjoyed by everyone. I'd recommend this for a great date movie.

Keeping Mum ***
Offbeat Comdey. As a lot of you know, I'm really not a fan of offbeat comedy's as generally they're just NOT all....this one? Actually, pretty darn good :P
The paper only gave this ** but it's definitely better than that. Stars the marvelous Liz Smith and late, great Patrick Swayze. There's some has the potential of being dark but it's just a very fun film actually...not sure what certificate this was given but i watched it with my family and enjoyed it very much. There's some partial not for a younger audience!

Bridesmaids ****
Chris O'Dowd as the romantic lead....i'm SO happy this finally happened!! I've loved him since the first episode of The IT Crowd!! This film was HILARIOUS and I saw it with a guy who found it pretty darn funny as well. So any preconceptions of this being a chick-flick can be thrown to the curb. There are some but it's a blooming good film. I would say that everyone should see this film but I know not everyone will like, teens and up. It's a 15 so that makes sense. I think this would work as a date movie but also, just chilling with a bunch of friends or whatever :P

Finished reading I Love You Beth to watch the film and compare xD

Today was a really great day :)

Peace and love

Wednesday, 20 July 2011

Ma Painting est finis :D

Why the French?

why not?


Well...i thought it was done yesterday but I've added some varnish....gotta love that :P
Varnish makes everything better :)

smells awesome.

maybe that's why i dig painting some much....getting wired on the fumes xD

i keeeed, i keeeeed :)

trying and failing to take pic to upload...i fecking hate this's the worst piece of @!??>@>":


Have finally seen The Apprentice Final :D I'm glad he won :)

Not much else to say....

Peace and love
Pizza and lager

Tuesday, 19 July 2011

The Adventures of Raindance Maggie

The Red Hot Chili Peppers are back with a brand new guitarist, Josh Klinghoffer, and this fantastic new single, following the 2006 release of their last album, 'Stadium Arcadium'.
Their tenth album, 'I'm With You' is due to be released at the end of August and I can't wait to go out and buy the CD. When the music's this epic, you just want to be able to hold it in your hands as well as your heart :P


Feedback welcomed, I know this isn't everyone's cuppa but I digg xD I'm just replaying after replay atm :)

Peace and love


Today I finished a painting which I started about a year and a half ago and have been talking about doing ever since...I've called it 'The Perfect Day'. I'm so up myself I name my artwork....oh yes...also signed it xD Ya never know :)

Saturday, 16 July 2011

Had a menage á trois....


This was supposed to be posted yesterday but I got home and went to that never happened xD

Epic bbq and bonfire/ sleepover with Louise, Harvey, Tilly, SUMMER, Adam, Pete and Daniel :D

Just so epic.

too. much. awesome.

So, in order to regain universal balance today was crap. :) I know i keep going on about this but i's because i want sympathy....


my hours today :'( It was busy and boring and everything aches. I'm so fragging tired.

Tomorrow is going to rock my world :'D That's all i carried on for today :P Working today paid for my guilfest tomorrow and i can't wait!!!

Happy Anniversary to Andrew and Deborah *neither of whom actually read this but still....*

Four years today!!! :D Ange actually made a necklace for Deborah!!! How sweet is that?? Gosh, my big brother is really thoughtful :) He also got Lush stuff for her....'nawwwwww :P
He bought beads for it in the Aluissa Bead Shop *name drop* in town.
btw, i recommend this shop if you're into crafty/textiley stuff...there's so muhc variety and it genuinely is awesome and actually pretty good value for a unique and personal gift....ok, advertising over :D

i can't think of anything interesting to say....

Peace and love

Friday, 15 July 2011



BBQ and bonfire and sleepover avec mes amies Summer, Louise, Talitha, Harvey, Daniel, Pete and Adam :D

I loves yaz all very much....esp. Summer because this is your party and it's epic and you made me coffee so that i could stay awake through all of this :D *so much better than lying on the sofa....or curling up in the couch*

esp. when there is talk of cattle prodding me and sticking me in chimney...?!?!?! reverse santa...ahahahahaha

Not sure how much I've eaten today but i'm feeling pretty good :) I's had much salady stuffle 'n' junk so it balances....ahaha.....

Nicki Minaj *neé Leighton* SUPERBASS

this post makes little to no sense....but that's okay, it is a quarter to 4 in das morgan....

ah, mixing languages...because i'm cultured... :D

nyan cat dubstep. i dare you. not even kidding....



keyboard smash

breaking face with aching smush fest maga wotsit mush ling dooga da

i should probably sleep but i don't want to...i just don't want know like that woman in The Invention of Lying who's standing outside of her office block just dithering and saying 'i don't wanna go in....i just don't....'

call me woman one more time. say it one more time and your head is going up his ass.....


'jizz everywhere....bam headshot...'

i've found tonight that i'm a rather gullible person..feck a frag a lacka


everyone told me that there was a hot air balloon and i believed them....mean people ...cruel really

Peace and love

Wednesday, 13 July 2011

WHOA!!! over 5000 views :D

Why thank you, thank you very much...

Gosh, this is all so sudden, i didn't really have a speech prepared or anything....

watch this watch this watch this watch this watch this:

pleeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase? :D I love lev :P

Did some reading at the library today :P i've almost finished my book now....i almost fell asleep in the really comfy chair which they've moved from one window to another window on the opposite side of the's a great seat, i recommend's big enough and squashy enough to curl up on and read a book very comfortably.... :D


i've eaten quite a lot of junk today but i also had homemade tomato soup *which is da bomb* so that balances it a single apple after a whole night of snacking *it's true, honestly, it counterbalances all of the bad calories....maybe...*

Okay, I'm done, I'll leave y'all to it now! adios til next time :P

Peace and love

Tuesday, 12 July 2011

Just read an article on MSN

About sleeping positions and their health benefits/detriments for women...

My favourite sleeping position is on my front....and that's the worst one....oops :/ Apparently it makes you snore *which i don't that's ok....* and it gievs you back and neck problems, which could explain why my back's been aching so much :s

okay, fine, sleeping on my back from now on, i will dutifully obey whatever I'm told on the internet....

Another song from Glen Hansard :D

couldn't geta decent you're stuck with a picture of britney :S but Glen actually makes these lyrics mean something...

Need to get new flip-flops....-_-'

Peace and love

Monday, 11 July 2011

Feel So Close

^^ Liking this song by Calvin Harris....chooooooooon :D
Could definitely see bopping to this *yes, i use the word 'bopping'....problem??* xD


note how i didn't use the word 'loving' though?? mmm, not crazy about it but if it came on at a party, i'd be first to hit the dancefloor. Literally hit it. face first.

Cuz that's how i roll.

Ha, have you seen the sushi bar in town??? It's got a new sign now and it says, 'see how we roll'


cuz it's like the saying but then you also roll sushi??? ahahahahahaha

*contented sigh*

And Today's Song From, 'Once'

So sad and beautiful. I'm going to drive you crazy with my love of this film, aren't i?

'you have broken me all the way down' O.o you know when there's a song or artist which just strikes a chord with you and it inecplicably captures you so completely?? Right now, I'm loving Glen Hansard and The Swell Season *his band*

Every song just amazes me and i know it's not everyone's cup of tea but it's really fantastic to me.

I grazed my back at the water fight...i hope it gets better soon, it stings a lil but more than that it just looks so horrible :/

'maybe i was born to hold you in these arms' ahhhhhhh such sweet lyrics :)
you know when you hear something heartbreakingly beautiful?? Glen sings like every word is being forced from his heart.

anyways, i've been rambling for a while here...why did no one stop me?!?!? xD

Adam, today was awesome :D

Peace and love

Sunday, 10 July 2011

I love my life :D

I went to town this morning and bought new straighteners from TKMaxx *not the pretty mini ones Summer....:(....after about 10 minutes of eeni meeni minii mo I went for a pair of practical Nicky Clarke things :P Apparently they'd been mis-labelled and weren't supposed to be on sale but that's their problem so they still sold them to me on sale price :P Yayzors* I LOVES THEM

But that's not the interesting part....

My flip flop decided to the middle of River Island :'( There was no fixing it and it was impossible to walk with a brave face and flip flops in hand I walked home bare-foot.
OH the class....

It could have been worse....I could have bumped into Mr. Taylor....oh wait....

YES. I bumped into Mr. Taylor. Bare-foot. In town.

I looked mad.

hopefully he didn't see me...but i saw him...:s

It actually could have been worse though, you see, the weather was quite nice today....had it been cold and rainy I really would have looked entirely mad bare foot.

'but kaytei, surely you wouldn't have been wearing flip flops in cold and rainy weather??'

Well. Actually, I had to wear flip flops because anything else would have been excruciating on my poor heals... :(

Ah, my wonderful life. I wouldn't have it any other way :P

Spent my afternoon doing facials with mom and then watching movies with Martin :)

Good day. Very good day. :)

Btw, Skylarks were busking in town today. Vair good :D

Peace and love
p.s had pineapple today. It was total yummers.

Saturday, 9 July 2011

Another song from my favourite movie of the moment...


Couldn't find a good video for this *Sorry* but I hope you enjoy the song!!

Work was ridiculously busy today :/

Hope it won't be too bad next week *when i'm working from 9-6, that's right, frigging NINE to fracking SIX* It'll either be REALLY busy or dead because it's Guilfest.

There'll be more people in Guildford but they wont' necessarily some to the café so it could very easily be just fine :) I'm hoping it'll be the latter.

My back ACHES :s maow.

Peace and love

Thursday, 7 July 2011


I watched this film today and fell in love with the soundtrack.
I love this song:

Peace and love

Wednesday, 6 July 2011

Sleep Deprivation

Haven't slept one iota...still not tired....I'll be fecked tomorrow....

Well, last night was interesting if nothing else :P Dang Dang Dang :P

Louise and Summer, I love you both so very, very much :) I have needed girly company for way too long :) i LOVE chilling with you.

argh, brought tooth paste but forgot tooth brush....?? my mouth feels horrible :/

ha, whirlpooooool :D

10 black coffees with ten sugars so it doesn't taste like arse :P


'holy fuck nuggets'

this is far from being my most coherent post but it is 8.22 and i haven't slept in 25 hours....get me and my sleepifullness. i should probably put on real clothes and ditch the ruddy PJs. and moisturise with the most lush thing my skin's ever been treated with *thank you summer :)*

we were going to maybe to chocolate facials last night but they looked quite messy....and sticky and we'd have probably ended up eating the mixture *cocoa powder, butter, honey and cream....NOM* just being truthful :P wouldn't like a liar now, would y'all? so we settled for eating chocolate...and maoam and skittles....cookies....everything in sight...we drank TEA.

Come on, we are British afterall :D Wouldn't want to rock our stereotype boat :D

Which reminds me...I'm off to wales in a few weeks :) very much looking forward to it...and of course i'll be eating leeks, picking daffodils, getting muddy and getting up to no good with sheep.

....because i'm welsh :D oh yes. STEREOTYPES FTW.

May or may not jump off the jetty again this year considering what it did to me last year *i couldn't sit down for a week :P* i exxagerate but hurt....i had massive bruises to prove it :/ DANG

Happy Wednesday Everyone


...not really sure it that's a thing yet...just trying it out for size, you know?


aha...references :P

I reckon I'll bid you farewell right about now....i love y'all out there in Cyberspace, for reals ja??



Peace and love

Monday, 4 July 2011

Today was fragging great.

That's as much as I'm going to say...

I'm so happy :)

Peace and love

Sunday, 3 July 2011

Was dressed nicely....

Now I am not.

Full of burger and fries *and cookie-type snackage :s* so I decided to slip into something more comfortable and not the suggestive, sassy comfortable. I'm talking trackies and oversized tee.


obviously :)

nawwww, me and mart had fun today, we went and played on the games in HMV and Game...good times....:P Also went Primark shopping :P

Today's been pretty nice, I finished 'Love Nest' last night....pretty much everyone got a happy ending...even Nick the bastard who didn't deserve one.

I feel quite bad for Karen though...she's in love with Max but she's staying with her husband Phil, who's perfectly amiable but Karen's never been in love with him :s It's best for their kids I suppose...maybe when they're older they'll be able to understand a divorce....who knows, that's a pretty big decision. part of me's glad she ended her affair but then I can't help but think she'd have been so happy with Max.

Anyways, today I began a new book, Matchbreaker, by Chris Manby...quite good but I hate the main character atm. Lindsey looks down on absolutely everyone and can't accept that her dad's happy with his new fiancé so she's going to interfer and break them up. Cow. And she was a bully at Uni...just saying....

Gonna go watch the end of the men's tennis finals...I want Nadal to win but atm that doens't look very likey :s

Peace and love

Saturday, 2 July 2011


Mark Kermode off of the Big British Castle gave Larry Crowne a bad review >:[
grrrrrrr I haven't seen it, so i has no real opinion BUT

It is produced by, directed by, co-written by and starring Tom Hanks.

Tom Freaking Hanks :O

...also has Julia Roberts....

They are my two favourite actors EVER. I like a lot of actresses and actors but I LOVE these two.
Furthermore, in all of the promo interviews I've read/heard Tom Hanks doing, he's so fricking passionate about it; as though he hasn't spent hours already talking about the film before....

Anyways....what I'm trying to convey is that I would quite like to see this film...

Buttery Biscuit Base


Martin and me are going to Burger King tomorrow :D

we do very Surrey....

I love saying that we 'do lunch'....I feel so grown up....even if it is only burgers xD

Work was fairly dull today....did some sweeping...and some wiping....stacking...cling-filming...
had a prawn mayo sandwich...and some apple juice...and a fruit shoot...

Basically, today came and went without anything really memorable occuring, but I can live with that. If I had stuff to remember every single day then I'd forget more than I already do...

Maybe I'll read through my 2007 diary tomorrow...I found it when I was clearing my room ready for my new bed the other week. I'd like to review the me of 4 years ago, see how much I've changed :P
Almost finished my book :)

Hope you had a great day, it was lovely and sunny!!

Peace and love

Friday, 1 July 2011





Hattie, so glad you called, had a great time with you and Fei-Fei...even though we didn't get that far...but as we agreed, that was only due to not wanting to hit the ducks, curteously allowing other river users to pass and enjoying the scenery. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with lack of skill *shifty eyes* :P

Should probably go get dressed....PJs again :) I got up at like 8....51/2 hours later I'm still not ready for the day....OOPs...

Might do some yoga in the garden...nude....

Peace and love

Thursday, 30 June 2011



and also, my leggings are NOT see through from behind unless you really stare. So bugger the hell off you prattish wanker.

A Thirty-something *i kid you not* guy said to me 'word of warning, your leggings are see-through from behind'

I was totally dumbfounded I just sorta stopped and stared , trying to comprehend how insulted I felt when He turned around and said, 'not being pervy, just saying'
oh my goodness.


Smothered myself in sun cream and got to chairs out in the garden, one for my bum, one to rest my feet on, sat to read my book 'love nest' by julia llewellyn *oh slushy girly chic-flicks, how I've missed you!!!* and THEN the sun chose to hide away. AAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH

My book is pretty good though, with exams and revision and life getting in the way of living I've been too busy to really read and enjoy a book for a while so this is nice, just chilling in pyjamas with an easy read. I haven't read anything by this author before but she's best selling and it's a safe genre. I'm about halfway through and very into it atm.
One character Nick Crex is a butthead...his method of breaking up with girls is to stop taking their calls and replying to their texts, basically ignoring them all the time...until they get the message....nice.
I feel really bad for Grace, everyone's kinda treated her like crap her whole life and now she's 34 and hasn't relaly got anything to call her own...but some guy's asked her ouit to dinner :)
Gemma's sister Bridget is going to be an egg donor so that Gemma can have a baby with her husband Alex....

anyway, I can hear you falling asleep so i'll stop...I should probably go put some clothes on, brush my hair....and teeth...I've been up for like 5 hours and I'm not awake yet O.o

Summer, can't wait for sleepover, i love you so much :D

Peace and love
p.s likey the new background? :P

Monday, 27 June 2011

Dear Male Population

Get the fuck over yourselves.

Peace and love

Sunday, 26 June 2011


Never learnt how to spell that word, why bother now?

Just looked through a disk of photos from years ago....:P so many things I don't even remember doing....such awful night clothes....a centre parting?!?!? dang, my hair was short as well!! It was just over my shoulders, so it must have been from about year 7/8 because I remember wanting a change...I wanted my hair REALLY folks didn't...we met in the middle :) There were pictures of my old house too, it was a bungalow with gorgeous bay windows and a porch and we had a massive hanging basket over it, and flower beds bursting with colour. The grass looked so lush and green, i can almost remember the smell and feel of it when I used to lie in it reading...I'm sooo gutted I can't go back there. Ever. I love living in guildford but I spent the first 12 years of my life there...and then some developer knocked it down :/ They cut down our beautiful magnolia tree and everything...the flowers were soooo stunning in full bloom and I remember hiding behind it, having water fights with my brothers :P we'd go on our trampoline and get real hot bouncing and shoving each other and then we'd jump into our lil paddling pool to cool off....dang...those were good days...

Today's beautiful. I hope this sunshine's here to stay...if only for a lil while, i'm covered in sun cream so I'm definitely gonna be strolling round later...mmmmm. maybe i'll do some cooking, haven't done any in a while.
HECK i know what i wanna do....I'm going to finish a painting I started about a year ago xD I got distracted and then I just didn't get any time...

ha, just told my mom I was gonna geta boob job after having kids and she said not to bother cuz they grow when you have kids anyway but i said they'd be all floppy and she said that's fine, just fling them over your shoulders....*cringe* I love ma moomin xD

Happy Day

Peace and love

Saturday, 25 June 2011

:'D I'm so happy


The past few days have been the best so, maybe not ever but right now i'm putting them right up there on the *Feck-Awesome* shelf :D

Hattie was amazing to invite me :) and her b'day plans were soooo good, i LOVED madame Tussaurds and our evening the night before :P and i love you hattie :D

Then sleeping over with a bunch or rank teenage guys....I have boy germs :'(
*kidding* I had such a frack-brilliant time...even though i was the butt of a lot of sexist jokes...but that's fine :P I like making sandwiches xD EAT THAT YOU MOTHER HUBBARDS.
I'm shamefully bad at shooting zombies though....i'll go sit in the corner...anyone got a Dunce hat?



can't believe, i almost forgot to say this, it's really important...something big's happening on 19th September *one week prior to another incredibly important date...ahem...*


Oh. Yes.

It's true!!! My mama told me so, I haven't googled it to make sure but i have no reason to doubt moomin's words of wisdom :D

Working inside again today....'twas alright....had to clean the loos again...and mop....they're so picking on me....xD *i'm such a victim, i need attention, LOVE ME* fecked up an order today :s sean was bugged....but then he fecked up too....everyone makes mistakes :s

I think I'm about done, love you guys, honest i do :P you make my life like 100 *million* times better.

adam, we need to have another sleepover!! i'll see you on tuesday?? xxx

Peace and love

Wednesday, 22 June 2011


about killing a metaphorical elephant....??....

Anyways, I was of course referring to EXAMS!!! In search of some small source of solace *alliteration ftw* I've been avoiding mentioning them on here or in either of my diaries until that blessed day when they end. Today is that day.
Hallelujah :P

Odd being in the hall on my own.....maow....don't like being alone....

but it's all over.


Tonight, tomorrow, tomorrow night, the next day...all gonna be amazing.

I love this.

...apparently issues with latin paper 3....damnit...the exam boards' cock-ups were annoying when they weren't affecting me, but now that they are?? very dare they?


anyways :D this literally made me laugh out loud * i avoided using the abbreviation...get then!*

ahahahahahahahahahaha :D

Going to bathe, VALE

Peace and love
p.s for anyone who read the post of a couple days ago regarding a bangle made by martin, i used the present tense of fucere rather than the perfect here goes....second shot:
Martin mihi bangle fucerat.

or whatever 'bangle' is in latin...i tried a came up with 'bangle'....i doubt that...
p.p.s adam's lost his dummy, please can someone buy him a new one? he can't sleep without it....bless...

Tuesday, 21 June 2011

Well, according to google it's the first day of Summer!!

and children, you know what that means for us Britts, right?


we don't care what the weather actually looks like, as long as it's officially summer, that's enough for us to strip to the bare essentials and Rock this Mother Hubbard. I went there, oh yes i did.

I'm a little bit hyper.

I'm off out to withdraw my life's savings and buy a ticket for the soonest flight. Anywhere. I'm not taking any luggage. I figure, cash and cards could get stolen, baggage gets lost and mobile cost a fortune abroad so I'll live out of bins for my first evening but try to entice a wealthy gentleman caller with my womanly ways into paying for my accomodation as well as my clothes and food. For the record, by 'womanly ways' I'm referring to making him a sandwich as I will have of course secured a steady, but low, income working in a grotty sandwich bar. Of course, wealthy gentleman callers aren't famous for being interested in grotty sandwich bars, but he will catch my eye through the window and gallop in upon a noble steed. Yes, my wealthy gentleman caller is skilled in riding a horse, what's unusual about that?? and horses are allowed in the grotty sandwich bar...

do you know what? I've changed my mind...I reckon I might just stay home today...

Peace and love

Monday, 20 June 2011

Martin made a bangle for me

Well, he made a bangle...and i comandeered it...xD he said it's that's fine :P
it's totally cool, really like it :D

Martin mihi bangle fucit.

TOO MUCH LATIN. btw, the above sentence is probably wrong but it's supposed to say the same as my subject. My brain is fried.

I'm digging this song right now:

:S Wish i'd heard it sooner :P

briefly caught up with my girls before Latin :P love you!!!

Peace and love

Sunday, 19 June 2011

Streeking in the park

Skinny dipping in the dark


Dang....that's gonna be in my head for the forseeable *?* future....xD

dude i'm tired....THANKS realise it was like 4 1/2 hours or summat....feck xD

three more days. feck it.

Peace and love

Saturday, 18 June 2011

I really, really, really wanna

see a new film called 'Life in a day'
looks so interesting :P

gotta go. i had to clean the loos in work today >:( *stoicism stoicism stoicism breeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaathe*

Peace and love

Thursday, 16 June 2011

Hotmail's being a BINT

garrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhh xD Fair dos, most of them are just from facebook but still, the sentiment remains the same: garrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh xD
Btw, I slept reeeeeaaaaally well last night and for the first time in a while my room's actually looking pretty darn good :P I still need to move my books, monkeys, electricals and exercise stuff back into my room....and a whole bunch of stuff into the attic....
OH and also organise my wardrobe...I'm gonna put my shoes, scarves and bags in boxes under my bed with the other things i mentioned above *apart from monkeys and books...Dad's going to put up shelves for me :)*

Feeling pretty good today...SIX DAYS TO GO :D

Peace and love

Wednesday, 15 June 2011



my room is ready for my new bed. Thank Goodness. I hope I can deconstruct this bed tonight and move the new one in so that I can sleep'll be odd sleeping in a new bed...but a good kind of odd. The bed I've had for the last five years has been the most uncomfortable, impractical, ugly, cumbersome BEAST of a bed. It blocks half of the window!!! That's mainly because my room is tiny but still! I haven't been able to pull my curtains open properly for FIVE YEARS. I have to climb a ladder to get up there!! I've had to climb down that ladder *rather hastily* when I've been ill. That's not fun. I'm SO relieved that i can finally sleep properly. not only the bed, but the mattress. my old mattress was lumpy and bumpy and really hard. it's lucky I'm a heavy sleeper really....anways....i'm happy i have a new bed....that's about it really :P

Peace and love
p.s SUMMER Have you stopped following me?!?!?! :O whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy? xD xx

Well...looks like nothing's changing...

Ah, I guess i knew it really, but you can't stop a girl from hoping.

Guess I'm gonna be stuck here forever. Doesn't matter. Just don't look, stop bothering and making me care about all this. That's really not fair, you know? but fine. whatever. there's no use getting upset, no one cares anyway. But fine. It doesn't matter. Nothing does.

Lets all just live passively and watch oppurtunities flit past us because we're all too afraid to creep out from our horrid hidey-holes. Yep, that sounds about right. What a fanciful philosophy.

I'm way too pissed off to explain this right now. but does anyone remember what happened around about this time last year? He always does this.

Peace and love