Thursday, 31 December 2009

2009 in lyrics

Praying to a god that I don't believe in.
There are times when I'm not okay.
It takes no time to fall in love.
Is it the truth?
Go your own way.
I don't know what's right and what's real anymore.
Not today or tomorrow.
We could have been anything we wanted to be with all the talent we had.
So bury me in memory.
To me, you're a shining light.
If love is a drug, I guess we're all sober.
Force a smile, baby; half dead.
There's no better time than right now.
I'm your sorry ever after.
Your love is like one last breath of salty air.
Through all the devilish things we do.
It's not fair...
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad?
I'm so cold, let me in through your window.
I'll get by without your smile.
Always remember me.
I want my life back.
Nothing to say that matters.
People are puppets held together with string.
I'll follow you until you love me.
I'm not crying, it's just been raining...on my face.
Ain't no reason things are this way.
Sometimes I get so weird, I even freak myself out.
Together we made it.
Kiss yourself goodnight.
Cry and you'll cry all alone.
Your love is lifting me higher.
Time goes by.
It's looking like a beautiful day.
I love the colourful clothes she wears.
On my own, I'm nothing.
I need some inspiration.
It's all your fault.
It's breaking my heart.
What am I trying to say?
Why has it got to be so damn tough?
What a feeling?!
Follow me, don't follow me.
So what if it hurts me?
Should have done something.
Don't let me out of this black hole.
I want your love...
If there's been a fool around, it's got to be me.
Your a picture of the devil's daughter, I'm a pitcher of holy water.
They can't reach up into heaven.
Oh lord, what's the use?

There you have it, my year in lyrics.
Each Monday I write out a line of a song that's really speaking to me for whatever reason and here's the one's I've collected through 2009. i'll do the same for 2010 if you fancy it?

Goodbye 2009, we've shared some good times and some bad times but we came through it together :)

Peace and love for the new year!

Wednesday, 23 December 2009

eyyyyyyyyyyoooooooooooooo eyooooooooooo

Hey there lovelies, my darling dears; sweet and wonderful as you are,
omgosh!! one more sleep until Christmas...unless you have an afternoon nap...then it'll be two sleeps BUT ANYWAY!!! I'm not sure whether or not I'll be writing in the next few days so if I don't get a chance to talk to you again before the 25th then....

oh! and have a gorgeous new year as well. a lovely fresh start to make amends to any of 2009's crap, ja?
2010's gonna be my year...10's my lucky number see. there are a couple things i ought to do and some i really want to and with a brand new 365 days to fill i think i'll be able to :) AND I have a brand new diary to write in, how cool, eh? beautiful clean, ruled pages just awaiting my scrawly script and blotchy ink. and those gosh darned, goodness forsaken profanities of mine. and of course those shallow pages of boy talk and "i love"'s and blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah 'n' all that jazz xD ah wells.
I wonder if I'll be this optimistic come the end of the year...or even halfway.
in fact, in prior warning, I shall probably be having my quarter-life breakdown at some point in 2010. I probably will shreik and shout and jump aobut like a loon. BUT things always get better, right? just look at me now. i'm happy. and about 3/4 months ago i really didn't think i would be. BUT I'M HAPPY. oh yes. I'll have an up or down or 2...or twenty...whatever but i'll be fine, mighty fine, fine and dandy by the end of it. :D
okay so i know i've insulted hmv in the past BUT they're customer service is pretty awesome in the christmas hubbub, you know? I got through a mile long queue in about a minute cuz they had all their staff on the tills, so kudos hmv.
ooooooooooooh, you know how travel's been dire cuz of the weather and subsequent road conditions and junk?? well, John Lewis opened up their department store and let stranded travellers sleep in the display beds in their show room, ain't that lovely?? isn't that christmas spirit? i thought it was sweet.
anyways, drink...until satisfied...not until intoxicated, drive carefully...before previous instruction...and erm...enjoy the holiday, ja?
errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrm, i've almost finished the first twilight book *i know i'm a feckin slow reader* 'tis alright. you can see why it's been a big commercial success in entertainment but truth be told it's not exactly a literary masterpiece...I have friends who write a million *or more* times better than Stephanie Meyer :S but yeah, it's probably worth a read to just to see what the hype is about really.
geeeeeeeeeeeeeez i'm so glad she's gone >:[
i'm in the library and some horrid girl about my age has been doing naught but swear at her baby brother and call him a "f***ing freak of nature" what an abhorrent character she was. urgh.
I was listening to the same adam and joe podcast on my iPod last night, i couldn't sleep and i couldn't find any music that i wanted to listen to so even though i've listened to it a million times before I still found them funny. i really ought to download some new ones at some point later on, what do you reckon, eh?
anyways...little off topic but just a reminder, have the merriest of christmas's and a truly wonderful new year *don't forget to say "white rabbits" three time before noon on january 1st!!!!*
Peace and love and goodwill to all men xD

Monday, 21 December 2009

rage against X-factor

WHOA!!!!! Rage Against the Machine got christmas number one, ain't that just the funniest thing? now, i'm not exactly a massive fan of theirs but i rather like the song and The Climb, really?! what the hell was simon cowell thinking?! eejit. ow my hands are cold. i wish joe mcCeldrey *can't spell* luck in future stuffs but it really bugs me that x-fator's pretty much guaranteed number one. NOT THIS YEAR BIATCH! dang...really quite cold :S
tee hee hee, summat went down yesterday. happenings happened. deeds were done.

ARRGH!!! still need to go christmas shopping :( i know what i want to get i just hate going shopping when there are so many people bustling about and you get a brolly in the eye and an elbow in the cleavage...lovely. i hate people. soooooooo cold. i have fecking goose bumps!! feckle. feckity. feck. FECK.


hooooooooooooop a loooooooooooooo-ooooooooooooooooop


sheeeeeeeeeeeeevery very very cold

owowowowowowowowouch. charlie. OWWWWWW. that really hurt charlie.

aw dang.

what on earth are you on about now?
frankly i'm not all that certain myself, how's about you?
errrrrrrr, i dunno, i thought that i was going to be narrative and you be subtext....
that does make sense.
so can we do that then?
errrrrr i dunno...what do you think?
i think yeah that might work alright. why?
why what?
i don't know just checking.

I'm off to dance with fallen dust of the stars icing the moon cake in the living room's belly.
ta rah

Peace and love
ps oh the god of tommy!!! amazingphil likes howl's moving castle...i lurv. LOVE. that film :D

Sunday, 20 December 2009

boot to the head

LOUISE's birthdAY hazaaaaaaaaaaaar
i suck at typing on this thing...opple 'n' hooble 'n' ergle 'n' all that jazzzzzzzzzz.
gosh. my face is boiling!!! why?!
caz says: Be a man and use your hand!



jacob's a mean bonbeanie saying mean stuff 'bout cazziiiiii but he is awesome !!(L)

omgosh, i've expanded in the space of 48 hours and now i look like a zeppelin xD seriously, i can float catface....mwahahaha

i'm so very very hungry

Thursday, 17 December 2009

I don't know.

I'm not sure about heaven and hell or reincarnation but my Mum once said something to me which I found so comforting that i really wanted to share it.
She told me that when we're buried or our ashes are scattered then we return to the Earth and plants will grow from us and animals will feed on those plants and so, in a way we'll live on forever and ever. Isn't that beautiful?
Now...anyway from the topic of death...what does everyone reckon to the snow?? There wasn't really a lot if we're honest with ourselves but there's bound to be more again soon, eh?
'twas rather pretty and refreshing but I reeeeeeeaaaaaally hope that not too much settles otherwise it'll disrupt all of the lovely plans I have for the last day of term.
OMGosh, two weeks, just two weeks until 2010, can you adam 'n' eve it??! I've started coming up with some new year's resolutions. dunno if i'll do all of them. one of the possibilities is to tell the truth all of the time but a) i think that'd be pretty hard and b) some people *death glare* would take advantage. ooople 'n' hooooooble 'n' ergle. yawn yawn yawn
I did EPICALLY bad in the math test yesterday. about halfway through i actually felt like giving up and walking out. I skipped sooo many questions. BUT life goes one, right? does for a bit anyway.
life's a bitch and then you die
so fuck the rules
and let's get high

Caroline's words...not mine xD preeeeeeetty darned funny though

45 seconds. teeee heeee. caz! You are awful...but I like ya!
OOOOOooooooooooooooh I am the blonde of the strawberry. certainly a whole lot more interesting than my usual brown. my hair's soooo boring. long and straight and brown. at least it's not brown anymore, eh? i just fancied a change and I did used to be blonde...when I was hair's about the same colour as it was when I was 6/7 kinda golden brown like pancakes. Gosh, I really could go for some pancakes right about now.

:OOOOOO!!!!! WAR HORSE WAS AMAZING. i reeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaally reeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaally liked it. The horses were massive life sized puppets and by the end, you sort of just forgot about the puppeteers and they felt real. it was fantastic. Such a lovely, uplifting story although I had no idea of the plot before i'd seen it and was convinced that it'd be tragic. maybe i'm too cinical and pessimistic. Ah wells. life goes on...for a bit anyway...
Last day of school tomorrow. doesn't feel real, it's all gone so quickly. and SO much has happened. wow. what a year.
Incase I haven't told you, each monday I quote a line from a song in my diary * i do them more often than that but for definite every monday* and i shall be posting them at some point in the next week so as you can see how my year's gone on. btw, the depressing lyrics aren't all relevant, i think they're lovely and poetic is all. I've had some ups and downs. some real downs alright but this year's been pretty darned good overall. and do you know what, that feels so good to be able to write. I'm still not sure of where I'm going or what I really wanna do but I have got the rest of my life to work that out, so what's the rush? why not just sit back and go wherever it takes me? deal with the downs *walk it off xD* and revel in the ups.
This was long but i've had five days worth of junk to write xD

Peace and love

Saturday, 12 December 2009

Every cloud has a silver lining

And everything that goes up must come down

And that Silver will come crashing down upon your head

It won't care about your concussion

It's job is done

Last night was goooooooooooooooood!!! I love love love Hallelujah and Steve gave me a solo on it in the karaoke thingy last night :D Then Katie sumo-wrestled with me but the suits were massive and hot and heavy so I didn't wrestle for long. then I went on the bungie run and humiliated myself. One time by jump off of the end and sliding onto my bum *owwwwwwwww-that was my

Friday, 11 December 2009



aw, i got a huggle from harvey today :) he's never initiated a hug to me before, has always been t'other way around so i thought that was nice.

OOOOooooooooooh you are awful...but i like ya!!

^^love it!!

ermle 'n'ergle 'n' hooble 'n' ALL THAT JAZZ

skrinking feeeeeels soooooo gooooooood :D yeeeeeeeee

I'm 8st 6lb and NO ounces xD!!! hahahahhahaha xD!!!! tee hee.
7 ounces is about half a pound so not so bad for one day.
BUT i keep eating BAD calories >:[
i'm soooo into chocolate and it's empty, not got protein or vitamins or carbs or anything useful. just fat and sugar which i get enough of from other things. hmmmmmmm. i'll work on it.
I had a massive satsuma at lunch today. ENORMOUS!!! seriously, it was the size of an actual orange. i'm so into oranges and clementines and tangerines and satsumas 'n' lovely juicey things like that :D mmmmmmmmm YUMMY.
mwahahahaha my head avaded lickiness today. MWAhahahahaha

I didn't die in drama...always a bonus and i think our group did okay but some of them were actually amazing!!!
hahahaha the GCSE PERM xD does you be remembering that mine darling, Sweet Caroline??

Eloise was in hysterics over a plastic bag....

:O i knew there was something I wanted to tell you.

In l'histoire yesterday we learnt, amongst other things, about the first male midwife and his name was William Smellie.

...i got the giggles so badly and i felt really immature; especially since NO ONE else was laughing and so i knew that I had to stop laughing which just made it worse and i sit at the front of the class which made matters yet worse....i was shaking with laughter and my eyes were welling up.


...pffff xD

poor ploddy still feelin' ill :( let's all bless him. God bless him. in fact God bless you. God bless all of you, even if you don't believe in God...a fictional God blesses you; Boggins blesses you.

I heard that on the Adam and Joes podcast from BBC radio 6 and just though it was hilarious so there you 'ave it! Boggins is a fictional dog on their show and they were discussing whether or not to have this fictional dog fictionally killed. teehee. Boggines. LOVE IT!! cue harvey's " love it" face xD

Only 20 days of 2009 left, make the most of it and start thinking up some resolutions!!

Have a good weekend :)

Peace and love

Thursday, 10 December 2009


then go away and get out of my life then. off you trot. bastard.

HAA ha. i'm shrinking and dang does it feel good! mmmm hmmmmm 8st 6lb and 8 oz but then i weighed myself again and it was 8st 6lb and 6 oz but the scales are only accurate to two ounces so i reckon i'm in the middle at 8st 6lb and 7oz. no doubt that i shall be expanding come christmas day though...can't live without chocolate and niblet-thingies and MUM'S CHRISTMAS DINNER!!!!! MMMMMmmmmmmmmmmmmmm 'tis so darn good.

netball sucks.
oh really?

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrm loads of people are sick sick sick and that sucks sucks sucks.
ergle, there's so much to do and i'm getting confused about times 'n' stuffle 'n' all that jazz.

drama and triple science tomorrrow.

whose idea was it to sing in drama?!

...oh yeah...

Peace and love

Tuesday, 8 December 2009

you look like zuchinni

or you would if i could actually spell it :S hmmmmmmmm

anyways, hope you're well...I'm alright, thank you for asking.

A pen appeared. how strange. LOADS of people have been ill. gross. but i hope they feel better soon.

santa baby...forgot to mention one little thing,
a ring,
and i don't mean on the phone,
santa baby so hurry down the chimney tonight.

17 days!! hazaaaaaaaaaaar!!
omgosh, stop licking my head!!! =^.^=
teee heee
whiskers make me happy.
I got a jumper and it's jumping. jump. jump. jump. JUMPER.

ergle :( not shrinking. not happy. hooble.

Peace and love

Friday, 4 December 2009

For those of you who haven't noticed...sometimes my titles are links :)

ooooh yeah!!
ergle. our group was uber teeny today, barely anyone was in school. okay so that's exagerating but i'm a teenage girl so i'm allowed to :D a bunch of people were away on the art trip *lucky beggars* and others were at the clothes show *also very lucky* oooop and some were ill :'(

soooo, i wanna tell y'all how i did on that pesky drama essay of mine. I got a band 3 which was a C overall. Part a) got me 18/20 marks which translates as a/a* but part b) was DIRE and i got 4/20 which is a D. hrumph. not too bad for a first practicey type thingy and if i can sort myself out to work in the time limit then i'm pretty optimistic about doing the GCSEs at some point in the not too far away future.

i wore my massive jumpty *as my mama says xD* today. love it. *cue harvey's "love it" other words can describe it!*

ooop i've just eaten two slices of marmite on toast *white bread with butter so around about 250 calories* but i've been real good today and i'm at a very comfortable weight at the moment :D so comfortable that I don't mind telling you what it actually is.....8st. 7lb and 8ounces :D it's taken a while but i'm where i wanna be :D oooh yeah.

have you heard winter winds by Mumford and Sons???! 'tis soooo good; i heard it on the radio about a week ago and fell in love...:) gosh, i reeeeaaally do love that song yeeeeeeeee. it's not often that i fall in love with a song so much that i actually get excited when i hear it :S but dang does it feel good!! hooble. let the memories be good for those who've stayed.

Peace and LOVE
p.s i love you so much, you're the one i think about most of all and when i'm alone i'm not lonely cuz i know that you're thinking about me too. that WAS cheesey. tee hee.

Thursday, 3 December 2009

they try and try. strong words. accusations fly. he starts to shake and cough

It's so unfair that you know me better than i know myself. meanie bon beanie. hrumph.

ah, lovely monthly gift, how glad i am to have received you. -_-'

ergle. netball today in FILTHY bibs GROSS. urgh. i felt so gross. I'm so glad that i've had a shower now :)

ooop, and hooble, i've been wanting to tell you for ages but i'm in love with two songs right now, "Winter Winds" by Mumford and Sons and "Cities of the future" by Infected Mushroom. There's another song i love but i've loved this for a while...The Weight Of by Meghan Tonjes.
"I only look a bit like someone you could know, don't say a word, you make it harder, don't be absurd, it's just a game."

I gotta get going...

Peace and love

Wednesday, 2 December 2009

oh bother

mm hmm bother. grrr.