Well...Today was the last day in school before Summer :/
I'm glad that I have a holiday but I'm actually really sad that the year's over! This always happens. I complain my way through each term about homework and lessons and revision that needs to be done and then at the end of it, I just feel as though it's all fled past in a bit of a blur. Of course, Mr. Barnes-Mathews won't be there when we go back :( no more west country morning welcomes...I'll miss how he said my name.
that sounded a lil odd
He really was a great teacher and a lovely man though.
In the next term I'll be reaching the first of the major milestones in age and of course, with that i'll have work experience and more exams and it's all getting a little...real. You get to a certain age and you start to become aware that you won't always be able to get away with doing childish things...because you're not really a child anymore. You find that you're not so much rebelling against the voice telling you to grow up as you are realising that every day your voice sounds more like that. Adult. Suddenly, life's not a game anymore, there's more to think about than what you're wearing or what the boy or girl you like thinks of you...Life becomes serious...you feel almost obliged to try and find more meaning in it than there appears to be upon the surface. Because you start to realise that life won't always be there.
Life is too short for regrets, I just need to remind myself that I need to appreciate the little things in the here and now like when my mum wears Anais Anais and it reminds me of when i was a lot younger. I need to revel in those sweet moments without trying to make too much out of the big picture. Step back once in a while to check out how that big picture's looking but not become obsessed with it...
I have been soaked to the skin, toasted in the sun and picked up and carried twice! seriously, i've gone pretty much my whole life without being carried like that and then two in the same day xD
i feel compelled to mention buses but they probably come along just a tad more often than twice every decade...
mmm hmmm, tommy fulfilled his promise *in the process making me panty-flash -_-'* and Simon planned on throwing me in the river FOR SPEAKING THE TRUTH!! He was epic failing at climbing up a teeny weeny wall...which turned out to be not so teeny when you actually got down there *ahem*
Anyways, we saw Toy Story 3 as our end of term cinema tradition and it really was amazing...the pixar short animation before it was really sweet as well....I love Andy :/ he was a really great kid.
Gosh. there are probably a million more things that i should be writing but i sure as rain is wet can't think of them right now.
I'm heading up to Wales on saturday and i always says that i'm not sure if i'll be able to write but in truth...my grandpa's computer is always on and he lets me use it whenever i want cuz he's really sweet :) so i'll probably be able to keep you up to date :)
The end of an era.
I won't be seeing any of my friends for a while :s i'll really miss you. like, a lot. you know who you are :P
just remember, whilst i'm gone,
"who's a fish?"
Peace and love
^^that felt halfhearted :/ i'll be better tomorrow but i'm not sure how you'd describe this feeling right now...i really am upset...it sounds completely ridiculous but i don't want to grow up. as annoying as it is to admit, i'm frightened of change.