Friday, 31 July 2009

Home soon :(

Tomorrow I shall be leaving Wales and saying goodbye to my grandparents for another year. I hate having to say goodbye; it hurts too much. And the salt in my bullet wound is the 7 hour car journey home >:[ Ah well. Some parts of life suck but if they didn't then we wouldn't appreciate the good bits so much I suppose.
I must say thank you to Master C of J for becoming my 16th follower!! I'm really rather grateful! :D
I think that my family and I are doing alfresco lunching at Penrhos *pen-ross* beach later on today which shall be lurvely :)
I really ought to get off to pack my junk up ready to go home...

Peace and love
xxxx

p.s 'tis Master T. E. of L's birthday today, yes?? well, happy birthday!!

Thursday, 30 July 2009

Beaumaris *100th post*

Spent the day collecting pebbles from a beach in Beaumaris *Bew-marr-iss*. Well, about 20 minutes anyway...for the most part, we trundle-wundled in and out of teeny boutiques and bought some rock *lovely*. We also went to an art exhibition, one section featured seaside-scapes by Steve Jones and another displayed works by some knighted bloke. Ever so cultured, don't you know?
There's something awesome about smooth, rounded pebbles paved so perfectly in a sanded beach, wouldn't you agree? Well, maybe you don't agree but this is my blog for airing my opinion after all.
Mmmmmmmmmmm, my Grandma's making fish and chips for dinner and it smells goooooooooooood! She's an amazing cook :)

Er, I think that's about all I gotta say right now...

Peace and love
xxxx

Wednesday, 29 July 2009

The deed is done.

That's right. I did it. I screamed like a banchi and flapped my arms like a bird but I did it. I jumped off of Mackenzie Jetty. Getting up onto the wall was scary because I thought that I was going to fall over the other side. Standing up on the wall was ok. Walking along the wall, I wobbled and thought that I was going to topple from the side. The last step, I knew that if I didn't really jump out I'd knock my head on the wall on the way down. So I had to leap. In reality, the drop wasn't all that bad because the tide was in pretty far but to me, it felt as though I was falling forever.
Anyways; it's done. xD
Before that, we wandered around Caernarfon *can-argh-von* and took some pics by the castle.

video

Peace and love
xxxx

Tuesday, 28 July 2009

Oh God of Hot, where for art thou?!

In vain, the sun made one last feeble attempt at unfolding and outstretching his weakened and guilt laden arms into a reluctant embrace of sorts. Laid too heavy upon his shoulders stood clouds and their offspring of raindrops. Dampened, the smouldering sun dimmed and even the glistening light of eternity faded to but a flickering echoe of all which it once stood for. An ominous blackness born from hell ascended and asphixiated all around. The God of Hot had deserted the residents of BlogLand and all hope was lost. All residents paled in comparison to his wonderous, almighty obscurity, his heart-stoppingly breath taking style, the air of utter brilliance which could only be created be He. One mere mortal girl dared tempt his wrath and as he dealt great blows to the residents and she also; He made plans already to leave. So in the midst of confusion amongst the residents, He announced that He would be leaving in terrorsome imminence. Although begged to stay, the damage was made. Hell would now reign in place of his supremacey. Life was but a mass of meaningless dross. The God of Hot was lost forever.

Okay, now for some, "normality" i know for certain that 3 people have heard that Master Plod has made plans to leave and we're all pretty distraught...I know that he doesn't read this so I didn't think there was any reason not to show my appreciation for him. Anyways, my hope was that if all 15 of my followers checked out his blog: http://pissyplod.blogspot.com/2009/07/end-of-blog-word-from-mister-pc-plod.html and begged him to stay and then followed him then maybe he would reconsider. Well, a girl can dream.

Peace and love
xxxx

Monday, 27 July 2009

Thank you

A thank you must be issued to one Master D. S. J. of W for his participation in following this blog...'tis much appreciated!
15 followers HAVE IT!! in you face Master Plod.

Well, here in Holyhead, we're having some glorious weather, sunshine, blue skies and the likes so perhaps later on today we'll be heading on over to Trearddur *tree-argh-thur* bay to go a-swimming in the briney deep...or something like that.

"To guild refined gold,
To paint the lily,
To pour perfume on the violet,
Is just fucking silly,
...Or something..." I love Tim Minchin so much; that's an extract from a beat poem of his entitled, "Storm". It's a mock up of a line of Shakespeare.

Right, I'm off to don my cossie to venture into the seeeeeeaaaaaaaaa :D jaaaaaaaaaa....whooooooooooooaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....ooh and we're getting chips!! No holiday to the British seaside would be complete without chips!!
There are a couple things I could never say goodbye to, one of the is chips. Another is white chocolate mice, they rock socks. And aniseed anything rocks my world.

Peace and love
xxxx

p.s On the way to Trearddur bay I was nattering about this blog to my brother Ange and this is what he said, "Wow. You have more followers than Jesus did." it made me laugh xD
Just to remind you, Kaytei+cold water= crap idea...dunking myself in the sea was painfully cold :S but i might still be leaping off of Mackenzie Jetty at some point; the prospect of which scares the heck outta me but My Grandpa assures me that it's safe and far less frightening at high tide :D
p.p.s Mwahahahaha, the God of Hot refuses to follow so i'm guessing he doesn't read this so i can write whatever I fancy about him without him ever knowing...unless one of you tell him...but don't worry, i trust my followers not to utter a word to Him. So...the God of Hot? He's hot!! I guess the clue's in the name but still. He rocks my world...along with The Mexican Hat Dance xD And as I've bored Caroline with, there's not a thing I don't really like about him...apart from his insecurity of course but then again, my self-esteem ain't great so I can't go complaing about his now, can i?! How hypocritical *blurgh*
...I've written a lot...I'll leave you now :o
p.p.p.s oooh, yet another edit, verging on obsessed aren't i? Anyways, after a stroll along Newry Bay, watching various Holyhead-bangers leaping from Mackenzie Jetty, I've decided that I shall infact be jumping. However, I may be in a bikini as my cossie is a little...erm...well...it doesn't leave a lot to the imagination...if you catch my drift...ahem. So yeah. I'm thinking that the proof may be in video form rather than photo as it will be easier to capture the true extent of fear in my eyes on video...and you'll be able to hear me shriek. oooh and btw, I can only shriek properly when I'm genuinely shocked or scared...

Sunday, 26 July 2009

Darlings, a change of heart may be on the horizon.

I'm afraid to inform you that there is a growing chance that I may infact, not be jumping off of Mackenzie jetty. This is a sad time for all of us but out of sheer respect for you, I feel it is only right to explain myself properly. I have returned from a psyching session of gingerly peering off of the edge and I have to admit, IT SCARED THE LIVING EVERYTHING OUT OF ME! The wall jutts out about 3ft. on the way down, there are discarded trollies lying beneath the surface and a really rather frightening abundance of dead man's lace *a type of sea-weed so called because it wraps around your legs and any attempt to wriggle free merely entwines you further.* It looks terrifying. And freezing. And I don't have a wetsuit, all i'm equipped with is a simple cozzie from Asda *ching ching* so I may be in danger of catching hyperthermia of some shizz like dat boi.
mmm, went a-wandering with Ange and Wilfie this morning along the beach, Wilfie making an attempt to dig his way to China once he'd murdered any present seaweed. For those of you who aren't yet aware, I feel it is my duty to inform you that Wilfie is a springer spaniel. Ange is my older brother.
ooooh, My darling Grandma made Roast Beef for lunch, 'twas goooooooooood :D

I reckon that's about all I have to share with you atm...thank you for following me everyone!

Peace and love
xxxx

Saturday, 25 July 2009

Cymru!!

Hello from Wales!! We arrived little over half an hour ago and now i'm sitting in my would-be-home for the following week. As per the usual, something fell off of our car on the journey over but all seems well. It took feck ages to get here even though the traffic was pretty decent. The journey was about 7 1/2 hours because we had to make a stop at Tesco for fuel and stuffs. I listened to my iPod all the way up and it was goooooooooood.

I'll keep you posted on this week's happenings but for now, I shall bid you farewll!!

Peace and love
xxxx
p.s The sky is blue with flecks of wispy white could, darkened only by purple shadow of twilight cast by the soon to be setting sun, shooting glimmers of diamond-like glitters across the sea.

oooh, I can just feel that some creativety may be brewing within me xD

p.p.s took a little walk down by the beach...almost slipped over quite a few times :S but 'tis grand :D all the same. i love love love it. At some point during the week, i shall be dismounting from mackenzie jetty *chucking myself overboard from about 30 ft*. I'm terrified. Now, i'm OK-ish with heights and water but to make the final shove at getting over my fears, i've decided to jump from a high place into a wet place xD sounds good, ja? I'll get a member of the family to take a piccie but it may need to be censored to spare your vision from the hideous sight of myself in a swimming cozzie :O i'll post it all the same though since someone asked for proof...*you'll be smiling on the other side of your face!!*

Friday, 24 July 2009

the morning after the night before...

...Has been shroud in nought but a darkened cloud. The rain is falling and nothing will change. The sky is grey and is showing no range.

Well, there's the weather for you!

Anyways, things are looking better, speach has been spoken and words have been worded and all that jazz so yeah.

Tomorrow i'm going to WALES!!! xD soooo looking forward to being able to breathe and not gag on car fumes :)

Peace and love
xxxx

urgh i give up and in and everything

14 followers and life seems complete...for about a second...or less...
Cut it out and watch me bleed, slit my wrists and call me pretty.
suck out all the poison and drink away the pain.

once upon a time a girl liked a boy and she told him so. But woe begotten was the girl for the boy didn't like the girl back...well at least not in that way...the boy went on to accomplish his dreams, rule the world and have a beautiful family.The girl had meaningless fleeting romance after meaningless fleeting romance and eventually found a place in life which she could just about cram herself into. She forgot her aspirations and who she used to be...turned to hard drugs and never made anything of herself.No body came to the funeral which wasn't held. Her death passed unacknowledged.

The boy lived happily ever after.The end.

Peace and love xD
xxxx

Wednesday, 22 July 2009

I think...

I think that life should make more sense than it does. I think that boys should tell girls what they mean. I think that lies should be illegal...even the white ones are tainted with ugly scars. I think that insecurity should disappear. I think that I should be able to string a decent sentence together when I'm talking to...him...instead of acting like an eejit. I think that everything has a reason...sad but true. I think that the people we love are taken from us too early. I think that I dream of impossibilities too much. I think that I don't tell my friends that I love them as often as I should. I think that no matter how much you want something...or someone...you can't always have your way...which is why I like to think that everything has a reason. I think that one day, when I die, I'll miss the world I left behind. I think that Heaven would be nice though. I think that reincarnation's a pretty good deal too. I think that time should be savoured because it will run out soon. I think that when we are sure, we should no longer delay or pretend or hide away but shout it Loud, Proud and to every Crowd. I think...I'm in love with you.

I think I have far too much time on my hands...

Peace and love
xxxx

Monday, 20 July 2009

NEVER EVER try and tight-line your eyes

Tight-lining is the application of eyeliner to the watery bit of your eye just beneath the top set of your lashes. It's near on impossible and I've jabbed myself many, many times now :S and another thing which I fail at most epicly is applying liquid liner. I look so bad right now and my eyes feel heavy and gross :( Hmmmm, i've barely done a thing today...wandered around town, read some of my book, had a walk down by the river *doncha know?!* and not a lot else :S uh oh. anyways, places to go, people to see and all that is jazzful. I love my GodOfCapriSun very much so. her gift of ipod and ipod stuff is very sweet but i have yet to attempt to synch it and add any new music, useless as I am with technology...:(

Right, that's all from me, Cheerio, tah-ra!! so long, farewell, auf wiedersehn, goodbye!

Peace and love
xxxx
p.s it's 9.17 i just heard that my uncle has 6 months to live. he's riddled with cancer and there's no chance of recovery. i just don't know what to say really, this sort of thing never happens to people you know; it's too horrible.

Sunday, 19 July 2009

Jumping for joy, screaming and yelling my head off in absolute ecstacy!!

I have equalled the number of followers who currently devote themselves to one master PC Plod!! That's right, i'm not crying, nor do i feel really rather painfully inadequate in comparison to he, heck no! I feel, empowered and awesome! Thank you Miss H. R. L of T!! you've made my day!
Cazzzziiiiiiii!!! Town was amazing!! It was so good to just catch up with you and have a lovely girly natter about not a lot! ZESTY BLOKE!!

lovelovelovelovelovelove

Peace and love
xxxx
p.s I dunno what the big band people are actually really doing in Spain but here's to hoping it all goes swimmingly!
p.p.s bought an album by Jeff Buckley today. He made beautiful music and he was taken from this world too early.

Saturday, 18 July 2009

"aw, look at that teeny tiny dog"

..."it has a penis"....

So, in the past...36(?) hours, a LOT has happened and if what they say about only absorbing 20% of life's happenings is true then this entry shall be incoherent and really rather confusing, however, I do believe that we shall trundle-wundle our way through all the same, yes?
Right, school ended for Summer at 12.25 yesterday *hazaar* and about a million and one people came with me to the cinema :D we went in another masseeeeeve group and it was brillig. AND surprisingly, there weren't too many people so some us sat in the premiere seats :D We watched Harry Potter and the half blood prince. I'd only read the first four books...I might possibly be the only person who isn't mad about j.k. rowling's style...so i didn't know much about the plot so I was able to appreciate the film as just a film and not as "the film of the book" when you begin making comparisons, things go wrong and as somebody told me, I need to stop comparing myself to other people-it does not help. anyways, I won't give away the ending or anything for those of you who don't know it but just for the record, i don't think that it ended very well. I mean, it was kinda abrupt...at the end I was a bit like, "is that it?" Some parts were Laugh Out Loud funny...other parts scared the heck outta me...Tommy can vouch for that... Overall, it's well worth seeing :D
After the film, I towned with a smaller group from the cinema group and we trundle-wundled around town and sat and chatted in the food court for a tidbit, then I went home to pack for ElinimodootocomSqueechTheGodOfCapriSun's sleepover. You need a shorter nickname. Anyways, once I was packed up and stuffs I met Elin-whatsherface at the bus stop to get to her cresh! We were planning on a major night of movies and stuff but I rather pathetically fell asleep at midnight :S Elin and I played on the Wii and one Wii fit I got my actual age xD and then I played the hula games and ROCKED!! I love hula-hooping but i would have liked it more if elin hadn't been sitting behind me when I was wiggling my bum around to move the hoop....not that she was looking or anything...
SUN SALUTATION!!!!
i told you i'd add that!!

anyways, we woke up about nine-ish. ate cereal. played more Wii games. ate chicken sandwiches and just for the record, they were nothing like the ones on PC Plod's blog!!! And then we went to help out at the village show. We were taking guesses for the name of the baby donkey *good times*...don't mention the donkey plop...please...
oooh, we bumpered ourselves into harvey!!! 'twas rather unexpected but lovely all the same. We ate chips and theere was vinegar in vapour form!!! I kinda hate vinegar, can't even deal with salt and vinegar crisps really but chips can't go without vinegar, salt and just a tidbit of ketchup.
oooh and I bought a funky bracelet with wooden beads *just like I like* from some random stall for 75p!! xD
and then I think we went home. Elinwhatsherface gave me the dock thingy from her old ipod to go with her old ipod which she gave to me :D and it's uber cool and she also gave me a couple of cases for the ipod :) lovely lovely lovely. ooh and we chatted with cazzzzi on the phoney-thingy and it was goooood.
Erm...knowing me I've probably missed out about a zillion lovely little deets but I can't think what else to write right now...
oooh and I'm towning with friends tomorrow which is going to rock!! xD

PEACE AND LOVE!!!
xxxx

Thursday, 16 July 2009

whilst bombs are dropping and people are dying, sickness is spreading and children are crying...

...i'm here freaking out about the trivialities of teenage heart ache. how very selfish of me.
so yeah...he left for Spain today. he's there for a week and then he's going to cornwall for three weeks. Most of you know who i'm talking about anyone so there's not alot of point keeping his name hidden but just for the moment i won't say it out loud. yeah. i miss him. a lot. and when i have time to think about it all i'll probably cry. a lot. pathetic, eh?

yeah, i'm gonna go take a bath and take my mind off things.

Peace and love
xxxx

Wednesday, 15 July 2009

argh. you're leaving tomorrow. gosh darn it.

in other news...
house public speaking was pretty awesome, Jamie; you were amazing!! Tudor should have won!!

vancant stares at nothing at all can mean so much.
a silence can echo a million things i wish i could say.

Peace and love
xxxx
p.s if you haven't heard it, take the time to look up, "ain't no reason" by brett dennen. It's worth a listen. great song. here are the lyrics:

There ain’t no reason things are this way.
Its how they always been and they intend to stay.
I can't explain why we live this way, we do it everyday.
Preachers on the podium speakin’ of saints in seance,
Prophets on the sidewalk beggin’ for change,
Old ladies laughing from the fire escape, cursing my name.
I got a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same,
A window and a pigeon with a broken wing,
You can spend your whole life workin’ for something
Just to have it taken away.
People walk around pushing back their debts,
Wearing pay checks like necklaces and bracelets,
Talking ‘bout nothing, not thinking ‘bout death,
Every little heartbeat, every little breath.
People walk a tight rope on a razors edge
Carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons.
It could be a bomb or a bullet or a pen
Or a thought or a word or a sentence.

There Ain't no reason things are this way.
It's how they always been and they intend to stay
I don’t know why I say the things I say, but I say them anyway.
But love will come set me free
Love will come set me free,I do believe
Love will come set me free, I know it will
Love will come set me free, yes.

Prison walls still standing tall,
Some things never change at all.
Keep on buildin’ prisons, gonna fill them all,
Keep on buildin’ bombs, gonna drop them all.
Working your fingers bear to the bone,
Breaking your back, make you sell your soul.
Like a lung that’s filled with coal, suffocatin’ slow.
The wind blows wild and I may move,
The politicians lie and I am not fooled.
You don't need no reason or a three piece suit to argue the truth.
The air on my skin and the world under my toes,
Slavery stitched into the fabric of my clothes,
Chaos and commotion wherever I go, love I try to follow.

Love will come set me free
Love will come set me free, I do believe
Love will come set me free, I know it will
Love will come set me free, yes.

There ain't no reason things are this way
It’s how they always been and they intend to stay
I can't explain why we live this way, we do it everyday.
p.p.s tomorrow might just be the worst day of my life, i'm no good with goodbyes...that's if i get to say a proper one at all.

Tuesday, 14 July 2009

hey, i miss you. i want you and need you. i love you

here are the lyrics to one of my favourite songs, "i ain't gonna lose you" by Brett Dennen

You can put a stick in my spokes
I can be the butt of your jokes
I can be the laughing stock, I can be your hoax
But I aint gonna lose you

They can come and tear my house down
They can run me out of town
They can tie me up, call me a clown
But I ain't gonna lose you

I can't stand
The thought of another man

They can make me turn my back on my friends
Send me away to up in san quentin
Put me in the hole, a thousand times again
But I ain't gonna lose you

Throw me in a hurricane
Tell the whole world I've gone insane
Run an electric shock to my brain
But I ain't gonna lose you

I can't stand
The thought of another man

I'll sing it from my roof top
I'll sing it from the bus stop
I'll sing it on the street drunk to a cop
But I ain't gonna lose you

"in a world of suffering, why should i be so blessed?"

Monday, 13 July 2009

my nose feels odd

my dad's out strimming grass away in the garden and it's really getting up my nose. i don't really get hay-fever as such but this is far from pleasant. I desire to tell the grass-strimmer to shut the fup.
oooh, on a rather brighter note, I got A* on the course work that my group have been working on this past term in English. I'm really rather pleased with myself...:)
*sneeze*
If I'm absolutely honest with you, I don't have a lot to report about my day but I'm trying to postpone the beginning of my homework for as long as I can...

For those of you whom find mathematics, "easy"...you are not appreciated by myself... I was struggling with my homework at lunchtime and uber clever, boff-like, could-run-the-country-if-they-wanted-to kind of people come over and tell me it's easy. NOT AMUSED. -_-'

Awwwww man, Thursday is going to suck majorly :(
ooooh, incase you haven't heard, I'm now squeech-thegodofcaprisun's foster mum...

Anyways, creativety day tomorrow...great... it's just gonna be the year above us bossing us around all day and at the end, we'll have acheived nought but a tacky mess...

Hugs and kisses

Peace and love
xxxx

p.s those of you who read this regularly know that I always sign off with "peace and love" I feel like a change...any suggestions?

p.p.s If I hold my head up. Long enough to be seen. Over the crowd. Verfied will be my dreams. Enveloped in a bubble. Yawn for the monotony. Of the falsities we preach. Undone, one glance from you and my facade is undone. Forgive the past. Obscure yourself from history. Return to the glorious present. Eternity's gift of life. Vrai ou faux? Endings only bring more questions. Resolve, still and calm, resolve.

Sunday, 12 July 2009

I don't like marmalade

My mum and Ange have made the most lovely plum jam but it's orange like marmalade. It tastes so good if i close my eyes but looking at it, all I can feel in my mouth is sharp, bitter, orange peel.
ah well.
I have to put together a magazine for english, finish math work which was due in last on friday and do some really rather pointless DT work...great.

My shift at Marie Curie went well yesterday. I ended up staying until Elizabeth *assisant manageress* was shuttig up shop, so I hoovered th shop floor for her and made sure that all the hangers were the right way around and then I sized some items ready for display. One or two buggers decided to take some things from the shop earlier in the day which was horrid but that day's takings were still fairly decent.

I feel like talking to you but I'm really not in the mood to be writing like this and trying to make jokes and all that crud.

I watched the forty year old virgin last night. Some parts were rather vulgar and explicit but I guess that when you decide to watch a film which has a plot focusing upon sex, you can't hope for muhc else. Steve Carrel and Seth Rogan were very funny in it though.

Right, I best get on with some homework now or else my father dear will chuck me off of the computer.

tah-ra

Peace and love
xxxx

p.s Running for all the wrong reasons. Opening up to you. Baring my true virtues. Eventually, you'll carry me through. Regarding all that's been done. Time's awaiting your answer. In the silence. Long, cold silence. On and on it stretches. Vis รก vis those words I uttered. End it now. Yours is the only heart I wish to reside within. On you say so. Under your gaze I'll stay forever.

Friday, 10 July 2009

Did ya miss me?!

It's been a long time, three or four days I make it!!
Now, don't go getting me all wrong and misconstru my sayings but please, hear me out; I'm so so so looking forward to the holidays but there are some issues. It's the end of an era and i'm getting a little emotional :S and, six weeks away from loads of people? How can i make it?? You know, there's nothing sadder than a lonely libra...well, i'm libra so don't go making me lonely! It's not like i'm not going to see anyone at all; i'm bound to meet up with bunches of my friends but there will be some who are going to be miles away for ages and ages *you know who you are* :'(
AND one of them is going to China, CHINA (!) for four weeks :S
and, now that it's nearing the end of term, we're really feeling the rish to finish off the last parts of projects and crud for school. And, we're all well aware that once the holiday is over, we are in great need of knuckling down and doing serious work...woe is me. I worry about nothing so i'm a nervous wreck when in an actually stressful situation!!
I'm heading up to Wales in the Summer...only for a week but I can't wait! I'm going to be able to walk my Grandma's dog, Wilfie and go down to the beach at 7am every day and freeze myself in the sea and not care about my hair getting salted and frizzy or wearing make up. I won't have to care about the trivialities of teenage life. I'll be Kaytei, "wild and free". I'm planning on jumping off of MacKenzie *sorry if i've spelt that wrong* Jetty *and that* Loads of people do it and it's a kind of traditional thing to do; my parents did it at around my age! If the weather isn't too bad and I can build up the courage, i'm doing it!!
oooooh, and this saturday, i'm spending the afternoon volunteering in the marie curie cancer care charity shop in town. I love the manageress, Gill, she's so sweet!! I'm gonna be rushing with homework this weekend but i'm still looking forward to clearing a couple hour's of time for work with Gill.
oooooooh, martin got 53/70 in his math test and cam top of the class!!! he's bottom set year seven but for those of you who understand about his condition and all that jazz, it's blooming marvelous really! I'm so proud of him! and he had a blood test this morning and the nurse got the needle in first time and got a full syringe of blood. martin's usually a difficult case when it comes to having blood taken but today went well. Last time, he had some kind of reaction to the numbing stuff they put on his arm and had to take some time off of school :S

anyways, how was your day?
hope all is good and all that jazz

Peace and love
xxxx

Monday, 6 July 2009

well...where are the words I need most?

When I'm in a good mood, I can so effortlessly string words together into a fairly decent sentiment but whenever I'm...like this...they fail me so abhorrently :S
So, a wonderful boy now knows how much i like him.
And I managed to make myself look like an alimighty fool once again today in science...great. I shouted at someone i really like and i wish i hadn't. I really need to sort this out. *huff*

Peace and love
xxxx

Sunday, 5 July 2009

Chessington was amazing

I went with the group from Mock Magistrates but mainly hung around with Kate :)
I had four ice creams and now feel sooooooo sick.
I saw lions, gorrilas and tigers and a bunch of reptiles too.
i went on dragon's fury...terrified me but it was worth it.

Do you know what? I'm really scared of rejection but i know it's gonna happen and it's inevitable so why and even try and avoid it. I'm so bored of kepping this a secret so I'm just gonna tell him on Monday...argh...Monday's tomorrow...that's a little scary :S but NO FEAR...I think this is something i should do and I should do it without my glasses as well.
*I really do feel sick*

and i have to tell someone else something too...you know how life has many twists and turns and all that jazz? one day everything's cool and the next it's all completely different? yeah...some things change but other's don't. I'm rambling but my point is, some feelings, some emotions, they last forever and no, they never change.

*my head hurts*

i'm kinda writing a new story...i've only got the tiniest of parts so far but maybe i'll post it some time...depends...oh and i don't have a name for it so if i do post it; i may entitle it, "..." or somethign to that effect.

Peace and love
xxxx

*TWO OR SO HOURS LATER!!*

P.s i did a very childish thing...i actually ate so much ice cream that i made myself sick *go me* I don't think i've done something like this since i was...three...(?)
p.p.s i'm making fortune cookies tomorrow and can't wait!!! but i've gotta prepare the fortunes in a moment -_-'
p.p.p.s rock on roger federra in wimbledon!!! 15 grandslams!!! *whoa*
p.p.p.p.s"If you want the rainbow, you must put up with the rain." D. Parton

Saturday, 4 July 2009

The Magical Gareth



Maybe I should chill??
mmmnnn...maybe. There's sunshine and a barbeque and...chris... :) perhaps things are good after all :)
Last night certainly was brilliant! Truth or dare resulted in me telling a lovely boy named chirs that I liked him :) i don't really fancy him but i've kinda always had a small thing for him!!
ooh, and in case you were wondering...this bloke above is a street entertainer who I saw earlier today in the high street. His name is The Magical Gareth and he's ever so funny!! He swalled fire, cracked a whip, did little tricks and JUGGLED A CHAIN SAW!!! ooh, and at one point, he borrowed a bloke named Keith from the audience and asked the toddlers he left behing whether Keith was their Dad and in response to their angelic little nods, he says, "You'll never see him again!" mwahahaha!! I know it's evil but you shoud have been there, it was really rather hilarious xD What a man!!

Peace and love
xxxx

Friday, 3 July 2009

I'll take everything good about life and find a way to destroy it before a smile even graces my lips. I'll shout at poeple i love because I've had enough of shouting in the mirror. I'll draw lines of mascara down my face where i'm too afraid to run a knife. I'll walk away when you have open arms waiting for me. I'll turn my back whilst you bleed for my sins. That's just who i am.

*right, time for some sanity*
I'm in dire need of getting a grip here. Nothing's broken...things may be twisted but in time they'll warp back into place. the lyrics, "oops i did it again" come to mind...i always seem to do this and tbh, I'm so tired of the stupid things I do and say. i wish I could fast forward and just get away from the breaking torrents of my hormones. I've told you to only listent to half the crud i say and right now that sentiment is so apt seeing as my mood's swinging like a pendulum at the moment.

We could be so good together...maybe you'll see that someday but who knows?

Peace and love
xxxx

Thursday, 2 July 2009

For the love of Latin

I lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove many things but one of them is Latin and today's lesson ROCKED most supremely; shoving master R. D. of P out of my way in order to rub numbers off of the whiteboard. *life is good* I also managed to bruise my leg really rather badly in doing so, however, my sentiment remains that the awesomosity of it all was sooo worth it!!

This has been a short entry but what do you expect when i write most days?? Not much changes from day to day for me...such is life. Having said that, I'm now likely to have tempted fate to knock me out with some major changes...ahwell...

Peace and love
xxxx

p.s i almost sent an email and as you all know, i'm really superstitious so when the message, stating that there was a problem and that I should try again, came up, i took this is an omen that i shouldn't offload my problems and this isn't anything too major so i'm not complaining but i'm gonna work through it on my own because "big girls don't cry" even when they're being torn apart from the inside out. Sorry, that was stupid and melodramatic but that's me!!

Wednesday, 1 July 2009

errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrg-onometry

...I'm still not 100% on what that word means but I think it's fun to say :) As is the phrase, "shut up" when you pronounce it with as many syllables as you can. *sigh* good times...good times..
gosh darn district sports, many lovely people were not present in my life today...woe is me. Not really, it did suck a little but i'm seeing them tomorrow so all is well.
I promise the glasses won't be seen on friday...but no sooner. it's hard to explain. i'm sorry.
Do you know what?? I am so hot and so tired that I soooooo can't be bothered to do the math h/w i was set earlier but it's not due for ages anyway...

Peace and love
xxxx
p.s i'd now like to thank lord zaros for following me blog 'n' all that!! :D