how come no one wants to conga when I suggest it? 'tis the best and easiest dance of all and literally a billion people could do it together; what a great show of unit, eh? yet still, no one will conga with me...woe is me...
Just read one master J. A of R's blog and he wrote about his past self and how much he's changed in the past few years. he also invited people to do the same...so here I am, about to open up to a bunch of strangers. oh. my god.
In three years I've dated...five guys....*don't burn me* I won't say that any were mistakes but those of you who know me well will guess who I'd like to forget about.
I've cut myself...more times than I should have...none being the amount that I should have. I used to think that by focusing pain outwardly I could take away the pain from the inside, *BUZZZ WRONG ANSWER* I was a very angry person but I blamed myself and became passive aggressive and depressed. Then I began to talk to people and realised that I wasn't all alone. I wasn't, "misunderstood" and I was pretty much the same as a lot of other people.
I've had my heart broken only a couple of times and I'm still standing.
I spent over a year of my life daydreaming about someone I could never be with because I'm...HOPELESS.
I auditioned for house drama in school. I remember the year seven audition and thinking, "wtheck am I doing here??!" but i stuck it out and i actually got a main part. I loved it and felt so part of something. I did it two other years as well. I love acting. I'm no good at public speaking and some people don't get how I can go on stage and act an utter fool or cry or sream and be fine in front of an audience but that I can't deliver a simple speech. I guess I still find it easier to be someone else.
I moved school in year six and began talking in an american accent. at first it was to kind of create a new, "me" and before I knew it, I couldn't stop. Occasionally, I still slip back into that tonality but for the most part my american twang is dead and buried.
Erm, let's think...what else have I done?? I've argued with and lost a couple of times, people who mean the world to me. I vow not to let it happen again.
I've gave up having boyfriends and managed it for 8 months or so but whatever.
Peace and love