I'm fragging tired of writing essays :(

Got in from school today to find there wasn't a dot of sunshine in my back garden :( so i headed down to the river instead...i took my history work so i don't feel too lazy. I even read on in the text book just to spite mr. bond, can't wait to never see him again. *forrealsface*
Gosh I loe the sunshine, it's like everything's kinda...better...
You know that gnoring, tight-dread feeling that clings around your heart and chokes you from your core? Sunshine melts it away. I'm feeling good for the first time in a week but it's still not the same. I can smile and be happy and life is...good but i still don't feel comfortable and effortless like i did before and i can't help but feel like i'm just not going to for quite a while. but it's okay because i can see an end to this. and one day it'll be alright. it'll never be quite perfect again. it'll never be a fairytale again. maybe it never was to begin with but i believed it and now it's gone. and that hurts. but when something is truly destroyed you can either let the rubble fester away, scarring the landscape with a memory that'll never quite fade into the sepia tone of sweet nostalgia OR you can begin rebuilding. you can create something more beautiful and better than was ever there before. and with the sunshine it will grow and blossom and you will feel better.

well, that's the hope anyway.
wow, i feel as though i've been mute all this time and am finally finding my tongue, just now after tears of veritable silence.
A toast to tomorrow.

Peace and love
xxxx
p.s Congratulations Rupert ;)