TOUGH

Things have been really hard lately but I guess nothing worth while is easy.

It's ok, I have the support I need and I think I'm beginning to cope with stress in a healthier way...at least I'm trying to!

Just deadlines are crazy. The lazy student stereotype hurts when I know it just isn't true.

But I have fantastic friends. I'm discovering yoga. I'm taking courses in mindfulness. I have George.

So nay sir, things aren't easy and sometimes they really aren't good but we press on because there are only ever two options:

1) Give up

2) Carry on

I know my choice.

Peace and love
xxxx

I need your loving like the sunshine.

Beautiful George <3 :="" a="" and="" asleep="" beautiful="" brighton="" chips="" cuddles="" day.="" falling="" fish="" for="" front="" george="" had="" in="" it="" me="" nbsp="" never="" of="" on="" out="" p="" ran="" right="" say.="" sea="" the="" things="" to="" train.="" was="" we="" went="">You make me so so happy.

Peace and love
xxxx

I met a boy

And suddenly I'm Meg Ryan in all of those classic rom-coms and the camera pans to sunset. Not quite sure when life decided to turn around for me but this is just...

So.

His name is George.

George Guven (no middle name, like Peter Pan....Guven; he's half Turkish)

He was selling cake in uni and I was rushing and flustered and soggy from the rain and said maybe later. and I went back....kinda just to see him really. He was there with someone else...but i can't really remember anything about them. I asked what the bake sale was in aid of and he explained that they were the politics society and they'd inherited a lot of debt and idk, I just felt this connection, as though talking to him, this total randomer, was the most natural thing in the world. He really made an impression. I couldn't stop thinking about him. and his smile. wow. but i didn't even know his name!!!

....I stalked.

So he'd mentioned the the politics society and to be raising funds for them, surely he'd be on the commitee right?? and there he was, right on the facebook page!! AND THEN i found we had a mutual friend, so naturally I asked Matt about him and matt urged me to ask him out....so i did.

I was so ready for that no. So so ready.

and then he said yes :3

and I've never ever been so happy :3 i just feel amazing around him. I feel so valued and god we click. he makes me giggle, really really giggle.

On our 6th date he asked me to be his girlfriend and i said yes!! and now just gone our 10th date i'm biting my tongue to not say that dreaded three words phrase. that l worrrrddddd keeps creeping up like I'm gonna yell it out!

We've been going out for 2 and a half weeks but I've barely known him 2 months...this is a real whirlwind and i hope it doesn't end anytime soon.

my beautiful george <3 p="">
Peace and love
xxxx

Why am I looking at Pictures of Miley Cyrus?

When I should be writing my assignment?
I'm quite frustrated with myself for having left EVERYTHING until today :( now have a few hours to write my assignment. Thank God it's Christmas soon, an breeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaathe x

Peace and love
xxxx

I've officially started Christmas shopping!

I'm not as organised as I have been in past years and I also don't have as much money but yeah....trying!! I've bought a present for my older brother so far, know what i'm getting the rest of my family and my boyfriend's family but only have ideas on what to get for my boyfriend. I have a few tiny things for him but I need to get him some special main bits and pieces.
Also, stats assignment is hard!! :/

Peace and love
xxxx

Procrastination of the Second Assignment

Up until now, I've been researching and planning my essay which is due on Monday. Three days away. I am now about halfway through writing it and am feeling immensely uninspired. So here I am; procrastinating! It's going quite well, I was quite stuck until I began writing but now I'm getting into it, I know more of where I want to go with it.
 I'm really grateful that the first year of university is a learning curve rather than an  actual part of your degree (I don't know whether this is the same everywhere) because I feel like I'm doing a lot of independent learning through trial and error rather than being told what's expected of me.

Wish me luck :)

Peace and love
xxxx

It's all systems go

So I haven't been that great at keeping you posted about daily life...
Here's a catch up :)
I turned 19...I feel no change. At all. Turns out that most people I know at uni are older than 18, my two closest friends are both twenty and there are also a bunch of lovely mature students; Sophia is a hoot! She's 37 (looks no older than 30!!) and is absolutely lovely, she was a lawyer for 13 years and decided she wanted a change...that's pretty nifty- she just said "life's too short" I agree.
And yeah, kinda touched on it already but uni is gooooood! I am BUSY. I have lots of lectures and then I make lecture notes and then I do the set readings...and notes on those readings...and then I make time for my assignments :D
I completely loathed my first day. I felt really scared/shy/out of place :( and it really dawned on me that I'm going to be here for the next four years (sandwich course so I'll be on placement too but yeah, 4 YEARS!!) I got home and went to bed, had a little sniffle and ate some chocolate. It was uphill from there though, you just need to stick with it, I spose.
"Uphill" isn't to say I'm not finding it hard, Stats is haaaaaaaaaaaard but in the moments I get it, that sense of accomplishment is second to none! Got my mark for my first assignment today- 62! That's a 2:1 and for my first assignment, I am pretty darned pleased with myself...just need to get it together for the next three before Christmas and then the January exams...*ahem*...:s
Also! Got the Chancellor's Scholarship :D I don't get free tuition but I am being given a monetary prize. i worked very, Very, VERY hard and am so pleased and proud of myself. It might sound a lil conceited to say I'm proud of myself but I figured that I put myself down all the time, when I've actually acheived something great I should be able to be nice to myself :)
And lastly, my new job! I am loving it. Everyone is super nice, it is so cheesy but honestly does feel like a lil family unit :) Only thing is...I get paid in cash because it's a super small independent business. On saturday night I was rushing to get off work to go to a party and shoved my £40 in my pocket...halfway down the highstreet it wasn't in my pocket. Kind of a crap night. just a bit, eh? :( I've had a few days to make my peace with it now so I do feel better and you know, it really is only money, I have a job, I can make more. It's upsetting but I had a £40 lesson in "Don't be a careless fool with your money."
All in all, life is really pretty good, even if I'm busy and down £40, swings 'n' roundabouts and all systems go!

Peace and love
xxxx